A Husband's Regret

"Where are you going?"

I stopped putting my clothes on my bag when I heard him. I was preoccupied fixing my things that I didn't even notice that my husband came home from his business trip.

"I'm leaving."

He laughed and I winced when he hugged me from behind. I can feel his manhood poking on my back and I felt disgusted towards him.

I moved away from him and proceeded putting my clothes in my traveler's bag.

"What the hell Sam? What's the meaning of this?"

I closed my bag and handed him our divorce papers that I prepared when he was on his business trip.

"Jesus! Sam--"

"I know everything now," I cut him off. I don't want to hear his lies. I'm tired of it.

He looked at me with confusion in his eyes. He was about to touch me when I took a step back away from him.

"On Julians' birthday, you lied that you were on a meeting. I was actually planning to surprise you so I went to your office... then I saw you with your ex-girlfriend, the two of you were kissing then you pulled down--"

"Sam, no I was drunk that night! I had a meeting and--"

I wiped away my tears on my cheeks. I sighed and cut him from explaining.

"You were drunk but it wasn't enough to cover that you cheated on me! What's worse is you cheated with your ex-girlfriend Pisces! It was your first love--"

"No Sam! I regret what I did with her, believe me! It was just lust! You are the one that I love! Please honey, forgive me...I promise I won't do it again. I'm sorry," he said as tears started falling from his eyes.

He's crying, begging me to stay but I won't budged. I'll still go because I deserve better than this. I won't be like my mother. I won't beg for his love. I will never beg someone to stay with me. I will never stay with someone who cheated on me. I tried to forgive him but I just can't.

I held my stomach when a pang of pain came in. I found out that I'm pregnant but still, I won't stay. I won't let my child witness how unfaithful his father is. I won't let him/her see our loveless marriage.

Loveless, because I can feel it, I'm slowly losing the love that I have for him everytime I remember how he kissed that woman. How he thrust his hips on her. How they moaned that night.

"My decision is final. Our marriage is done. You can now go f*ck her as much as you want! I don't care..."

He shakes his head and tried again to hold me but I quickly get my things and walk away.

"Samantha Hammington, just this once. Forgive me please. One more chance, please honey..."

I looked at him with tears streaming on my cheeks. "I can't, Pisces. You know everything about me, so you should know that I can't give you that one more chance! Just get back with her and be happy."

I am Samantha Jacob--I'll never beg for love. I'm not going to stay with a person who didn't love me enough to fight his temptation for lust. Never.

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TBC