Chapter Two

Leaving the house, I took a slow walk down the garden… well, I say garden, I believe the word is grounds. What's a mansion without a massive lawn and surrounding? Admittedly, It was pretty nice and peaceful.

The regret was already creeping in. Had I made the right choice? 

I knew I did but… It was still hard. I loved that man so much. It pissed me off that I had him first. He was MINE first… and then he met my mum. Granted, we weren’t in a relationship, I just got drunk at a party one night and ended up in bed with him, but it didn’t matter, I still had him before her. It wasn’t fair. 

I lost my virginity to Dave when I was 17 and I didn’t see him again until months later when mum brought him home and introduced him as her new boyfriend. He didn’t even recognise me… 

… I think that's what hurt the most. 

Mum will know soon enough that something wasn’t right with me. I wouldn’t be able to hide it for long… and if she ever worked out that David was responsible.. god, she would absolutely crucify him… and me for that matter. 

I sat down on the bench next to the pond and sighed. The weather was warm, so I closed my eyes and let the sun hit my skin. I moaned happily, it felt so lush. 

How did my life get like this? How did I fuck up so spectacularly? 

I could pretend like I had no idea how Dave and I got together, but that wasn’t true. 

It all started up again one night. Mum was out of town on a business trip, I was having a really shit day, I can’t remember why but Dave was there to comfort me and, well, one thing just led to another and before I knew what was happening… we were in bed together… mum's bed. 

I think that made it all worse honestly. Not only were we having an affair… in their house... It was also happening in their marital bed. I assumed it was a one-time thing and that after that night, it wouldn’t happen again but it did… again… and again… and again... Every chance we got, we were at it like rabbits… I did feel guilty and ashamed at first but the longer it continued the more I was able to justify it in my head. 

… He was mine first… 

Sighing, I stood up and headed back, but the closer to the house I got, the more I really… really didn’t want to see David, so I took my phone out of my pocket and decided to ring a friend. Almost immediately, they picked up. 

‘‘Yo, whats up?’’ I smiled hearing his voice. 

‘‘Hey, Flynn... What are you doing today?’’

‘’Um... Nothing I don’t think, why? Need some company?’’ I looked over at the house in the distance before answering;

‘’Yeah... Can I come over?’’ 

‘’Of course’’. I felt relief that I had bought myself some time and headed the opposite way from the house, towards the road. Flynn didn’t live too far away, about 15 minutes walking, give or take, the weather was nice enough. I told him I’d see him soon and we hung up. 

Flynn was a friend, I felt like I could confide in him about anything… he was also David’s best friend too. He knew about us... He was one of the few people who did. Being Daves best friend, I guess it made sense. My best friend, Remi, knew too. I needed someone to talk to about everything… again, it made sense. 

The walk to Flynn’s house was nice. I sort of just tuned out and before I knew it, I was stood in front of the big metal gates. He and David worked together, so he was well-off as well... Meaning, his house was just as big as ours and had a massive fence protecting the perimeter. 

I pressed the buzzer on the gate intercom and waited for him to pick up. When he did, he just buzzed me in and I headed inside. Walking up the drive, I saw the garage open, Flynn’s car was there, but Peyton’s car wasn’t. 

Peyton was Flynn’s wife. They had the typical high school sweetheart back story. Got married not long after graduating and have been together ever since. Like I tell Flynn my secrets, he tells me his. Their relationship might look great to outsiders, but apparently, they were having serious issues themselves. 

As I reached the house, the front door opened and Flynn stepped out onto the porch. I instantly smiled when i saw him and quickened my pace. We greeted each other with a big hug and he stepped aside to let me in. 

‘’So, why did you need company?’’ He asked following me into the living room. I groaned and sat down, not really wanting to talk about it, ‘’Naw, come on, spill the beans, kiddo’’. I hated it when he called me ‘Kiddo’. It made me feel about 5 years old. 

‘’I ended things with David’’. He raised an eyebrow and sat down next to me. 

‘’Again?’’ I rolled my eyes at his taunting. It wasn’t the first time I had tried to end the affair, I always ended up back in bed with David after a few hours... Or if I was feeling particularly stubborn, a few days… 

‘’I just want the drama to be over, you know?’’ 

‘’Babe, as long as you’re screwing around with your step-daddy, there will always be drama’’. Interesting choice of words. I just hummed. 

‘’You’re right’’. I couldn’t argue it. 

‘’You’ve done the right thing… by ending it’’. I nodded, knowing he was right, even if it did hurt. A LOT. 

‘’So… Where’s Peyton?’’ As soon as I mentioned her name, he groaned. ‘’Oooo, sorry, sore subject?’’ 

‘’We’re just having some issues right now’’. 

‘’Wanna talk about it?’’ He shook his head. 

‘’I’m pretty much all talked out about it at this point, to be honest’’. 

‘’No worries’’. I wasn’t going to push him like I knew he wasn’t going to push me to talk about the drama’s of my life right now. We just sat in silence for a little bit, I wasn’t sure what to say but it was fine, it wasn’t an uncomfortable silence and being here with Flynn… Well, it saved me from having to go home to David…