When Angels Fall

My mind hurled as my body rushed through the air barreling down to the ground through so many dimensions that I couldn't keep count. The sorrow and shock over what just happened clogging up my mind not allowing it to focus on anything else.  How could this happen? What was my action that deserved this punishment? I hadn't a clue what I had done or to who I had done it to. Why me? There were others that were more deserving of being punished for trivial things than I was. There was Oliver who would try to miss out on the trainings, there was Helen who didn't like kitchen duty. I never once said no or even thought it. i accepted my new existence from the moment I was given my new life as an Angel in the war against evil when the Great War started.

Clouds of earth started to pass by me and I realized that my fall was coming to an end. I quickly turned myself to face the ground in hopes that I would be able to break my fall. The sudden realization that I, gratefully, still had my wings, hit me and I started to try to use them slowly starting to slow my momentum of the fall. When I was slow enough I was sure I could use them without them going backwards like an umbrella caught in a high wind I started to flap them causing my fall to be under my own control.  I was then able to look down at where I was heading without fear that I was going to smash into the Earth and resemble a bug on a windshield of a moving car.

The thought shocked me for a moment as I glided on the wind. I wasn't sure how long it had been since I had thought of something so... human. I had accepted long ago that that part of my life was over and hadn't cared to think about it since. I mean what good would it have done me when I had my future to look forward to and there was nothing to change it. To be quite honest I didn't even know how long it had been since I was chosen to join the Angels in the war, or how long it had been since it was over.

The land was getting closer and closer and I shook myself out of my thoughts and focused on the lush green landscape underneath me. I was surprised by how green everything was. I thought the earth would of been unsustainable after the war. There was a lot of fire power that was used and the last time I saw a piece of Earth there was nothing green left, only the charred remains were left.

There was an open field of flower slightly to my right so I aimed for it. Better the field of flowers than the trees to the left, the only thing I had left was my wings and I didn't need to break one and risk loosing the one thing I had to get myself to safety if I ran into anything, or anyone. I had no clue as to what I would face.

I landed with a soft thud. The feeling of the grass beneath my bare feet striking memories into my head of when I was a human and child running through the grass. A memory that was long forgotten. The smell of the fresh air hitting my nostrils and surprising me with delight. I had forgotten what fresh air was like and the feeling of the wind hitting my bare arms that were exposed because of the tunic I was still wearing.

I took a few seconds to look around and the familiar sight that had been long forgotten and listen to the sounds that were nothing like the harps and trumpets that I was used to. It was oddly calming compared to it. My shoulders relaxed and a smile slipped onto my face. I never thought that I would be here, or that I would have missed any of it.

I took a few slow, timid steps, unsure if the ground was going to somehow open up and swallow me whole. After a few steps the giddiness took over me and I began to run through the flowers like a small child, soft giggles escaping me as I did so.

The thought of Xapham watching me, when he did this to punish me for whatever reason, made me laugh even harder. It made me wonder if he was really punishing me or rewarding me. What could be so bad about this? I was on earth again. There were flowers and trees and everything that I had thought was long lost to the war.

Alone. The word popped into my head and stopped me in my tracks. That is what the punishment had to be. To be here on Earth alone for the rest of eternity. There was nothing here, at least, as far as I knew. Humans were long gone, turned to one side or the other, taken, or lost. I had no clue what happened to the animals and bugs that were once a main part of the Earth.

I looked down at my feet. Was I really able to survive a whole eternaty alone? Granted I didn’t have much time in the Heavens to have what I would call friends. I was busy following orders and prepairing for any war that might come at anytime, but I wasn’t alone there. I wasn't the only one and I was able to have conversations over a meal or in passing. Would I go crazy by myself?

The sun that was slowly setting behind the trees caught my attention just as it dipped out of sight. It would be dark very soon, and without any light, I would not know if there was anything coming at me or what it would be, if there was anything here at all. I didn’t want to be unprepared if that were the case.

I decided to start walking the opposite direction of the sun. what would it matter which way I was walking anyway, its not like I was looking for anything in particular and the trees to the East looked a little more dense, giving me more shelter from anything above and more places to hide if something were to stumble upon me.

The trees were like I remembered them. All of them sturdy and older, they had been here for many years. It made me wonder how long I had been in the Heavens. How much time had passed?

There were moss in the branches, roots that I had to look out for as not to stumble on my path through the woods. I didn’t want to fall and hurt myself, I had nothing on but the thin tunic that I always wore. No Angel wore shoes, what were the need for them when we would fly everywhere? I chose to walk through the woods, getting myself used to the ground underneath me, that was unfamiliar to me.

The woods were quiet, not a sound but my steps were heard. I was still unsure of what I would find, if anything at all. There were few spaces in the tops of the trees that I could see the night sky where I could see so many stars. I was sure that even as my time as a human that I had never seen that many before. It stole by breath away every time I caught a glimpse of it.

I grew tired after what I believe were hours of walking, hopefully still in the direction of East, but with the woods around me and the darkness growing I couldn’t really tell if I was anymore. I decided that it would be best to find a spot to take a rest, maybe even sleep a little.

I found a tree with a spot in between the roots that seemed like a perfect space for me to nessel into for a while. I sat down in the spot with my back against the tree the roots seemed to guard me from whatever would come. I looked up and found that there was an open spot in the leaves that gave me perfect view of the stars. I fell asleep looking up at the stars, wondering what I would find in the morning.