Chapter 4: Ineffable

As Andre opened his eyes, he was blinded by the bright light coming from the ceiling. he blocked the light using his hands and let his eyes adjust to the lighting of the room. he looked around hoping to see a certain person but was shocked to see Ian standing near the door with his phone on his hands. it seems like he was calling someone but as he craned his head towards Andre he immediately dropped the call and went to Andre's side.

"how are you? are you feeling good? I told you i'll drop you off to your house but you rejected my offer"

"I told you I want to follow him right? there's something about him that kept me hooked to him alright?" Andre said as carried his upper body up to sit down, Ian then helped Andre to sit down but concern can be seen on Ian's eyes

"How's Francis?'

"Ian stopped his movements as his face turned beet root" his supposedly white face turned red in an instant as his boyfriend was mentioned

Ian and Francis were boyfriends for a lot of years now, they have made this far because they were inseparable. every hardship they face it wasn't enough to pull them down. because every hardship they face they use that to make their relationship stronger. as Ian's face turns red his phone then rang. he fished his phone out from the pocket of his jacket

"maybe Francis' worried about you, you should go home. he won't stop you know" Andre stated as smiled at the latter

"are you sure you're okay? will you manage?" Ian asks his friend knowing that Andre is a very fragile person

Andre nodded at him and bid his goodbye to Ian, as Ian left the room Andre looked at the walls as he remembers that it was Clyde that brought him to the hospital but he was shocked to see Ian instead. he then grew nervous as he thought that he was nothing to Clyde, but what can he do? he doesn't have the right to question Clyde's actions because who is he? he's no one to Clyde.

as the sun rises the other day he packed his belongings and was startled to see Ian and Francis outside the Hospital. Ian went to hug Andre as Francis took Andre's bag and placed it inside the trunk

"what are you doing here?" Andre asked Ian as they broke their hug

"Surprise! of course we want to drop you off just to be safe" Ian winked at Andre as they both smiled

on their way to Andre's house he once again recalled what happened the other day, he grew restless throughout the ride and as they arrived at Andre's house they bid their goodbyes and went ahead. he entered the premises he looked at his garden and to his house. he was an orphan but thankfully his parents owns their house and as he entered his home he came face to face with his dog named coffee

"Awwwwww I missed you" he talked to the dog as he hugged it and brought it to the kitchen. he searched for the dog food but there's nothing left. he placed Coffee down and went to take his leash. he tied it around Coffee's neck and went to go the convenience store nearby. as he make his way to the store he spotted his long time friend Kyle. Kyle and Andre were friends since college and they've got each others backs in time of need.

as Andre got in he got a wave from Kyle and he returned it with a smile and a nod. as Andre made his way to the Dog food section he bought a bag and went to the counter

"Hey! how are you?" Andre started

"I'm fine, looking at the gorgeous specimens around the store keeps me sane" kyle said as he took the dog food and scanned it's bar code

"by specimens you mean, MEN?" Andre asked in a joking way

"Yeap! you know me! I always look for some fine specimens" Kyle said proudly but due to his attitude towards these 'specimens' he got lots of complains and if he continue doing this he might loose his job.

"that's 8.000 Won, and since you're my friend go get some beverage. It's on the house" Kyle said but Andre declined as he knew that Kyle would get in trouble if the owner hears about this. they both bid goodbye and Andre was on his way home but flashbacks of Clyde would appear out of nowhere. they are both strangers to each other but no one can stop the feelings that bloomed between the two.

As Andre got home, he prepared Coffee's food and went to take a bath. he spent the day cleaning his house and some times he would stare into space thinking about Clyde. It's not true that he doesn't know Clyde, in College he would stare at Clyde from afar because he knew he doesn't stand a chance. Clyde was surrounded by a lot of girls everyday in college as he walks through the corridors of the school. that's why Andre never got the audacity to approach Clyde because he knows that he'll be pushed aside by everyone and maybe Clyde himself.

looking back, he got pretty excited when he fell on Clyde's lap the other day he was beyond happy when that happened. the moment he landed on Clyde's hips he felt the strong muscles on his thighs, he didn't know what to do but he stood up and acted like nothing happened. he was really embarrassed that day, he couldn't even look at Clyde as he sips through his coffee. though Andre was shocked when Clyde started to go to their Cafe everyday and by that Andre knew about his preference. he knew that Clyde was a very reserved man but he thought to himself, 'I don't stand a chance even if I take this opportunity. that is why he keeps on ignoring his feelings towards the older even if it hurts him.

that day when he landed on Clyde's hips he asked his co-worker/ Best Friend if he can take a day off and luckily Ian agreed. he saw Clyde going to the other direction that is why he followed him that day but he saw Clyde talking to another woman. they seemed so close and clingy, he told to himself to run and never look back but his foolish self began walking towards the two. as he got nearer, the lady went away and Clyde looked at his direction. they were so close and when Clyde touched his head he couldn't believe what was going on. he couldn't believe that his long time crush was in front of him and wiping off the snow on his head that day. but being fragile he is, he fainted as he was not completely well that day. he just came back from being sick for a long time. he fainted but he knew, Clyde is the one who took him to the hospital. but he was in shock when he saw Ian in the room and not Clyde. Ian also mentioned that Clyde looked for him when he was sick and he asked 'where is the cute guy' at first he didn't believe Ian but he hoped it's true

as the day ended he plopped himself on the bed and went to sleep hoping to see Clyde the next day, but boy was he wrong.

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