We made love in every nook and every room on the third floor. Aunt Suzy suspected something’s going on between me and my bodyguard. I denied it and Alexander did the same because we didn’t want to risk his job.

However, I thought I could pull something like a modern woman could do. As the days passed by, it was no longer pure sex to me, it was no longer meant to satisfy my carnal desires, and I developed some feelings towards Alexander. Slowly, I became attached to him, fell for his charms, and loved him secretly. When we agreed to be exclusive, our hearts weren’t included.

At first, we both wanted to satisfy our sexual desires. He helped me, and in return, he could have free sex, but deep inside, I was hurting like hell. Every time I gave myself to him, I did it because of my love for him, and not because of the lust that my body had to satisfy.

I laughed at my stupidity because like everyone else, I used sex to bargain for love. It was low and unacceptable! No matter how many times I scolded myself to stop being stupid, and get rid of Alexander as soon as possible, I couldn’t do it.

I even contemplated proposing marriage to him so I would have him for the rest of my life, but what would happen after that? There’s no assurance that he wouldn’t hate me for forcing him into something he didn’t like!

As much as I wanted to keep him by my side, I couldn’t do that to Alexander and I promised to love him in secret until I could take it no more. My heart, body, and soul screamed for the man to love me back as much as I loved him, but he hadn’t shown any signs at all!

Maybe he was contented with our relationship…as fucking buddies!

I shouldn’t have let him helped me before, I thought about the first time he assisted me with my needs and I regretted it.

“A penny for your thoughts, beautiful!” Alexander hugged me from behind when he visited my room.

“Where have you been?” I asked him.

“Doing rounds,” He replied before licking my neck. “I missed you,” he whispered.

“Really? Then prove it,” I challenged him to prove his declaration of missing me when we recently made love, and that was two hours ago.

“How do you want me to prove it?” he asked, but his tongue already licked my earlobes and it tickled!

“Make love to me now,” I ordered.

“Alright sweetheart, your wish is my command.” He responded and without any delay, he kissed me passionately.

The window was open and I tried to close it before we would do something hot but he told me to let it open, anyway, no one would see us from the ground. I turned around to kiss him back, and he let me suck on his tongue as we deepened the kiss. My hands went inside his pants while he undressed me. I kneeled on the floor as I pulled it down and covered his erection with my mouth.

Alexander groaned hard and loud when I sucked him. “That’s enough,” he said and assisted me to stand up. I wanted to suck him until he would die from it but he wouldn’t let me. He would always interrupt me by saying that it was enough.

“Why?” I asked him.

Alexander didn’t respond to my question, instead, he made me face outside, and I could see someone walking in the street when he bent my body and penetrated me from behind.

“Ohhhhh…,” I could only moan when he was already inside me, and as soon he pumped in and out from my body, I held unto the railings of the window for support. However, I noticed that the pace of our lovemaking was slower than before, and although I liked it, I preferred him to ravish me and fucked me hard. “Harder please…!” I begged him to increase his speed and when he did, I shut my eyes and screamed for his name over and over again.

It was so soon, but I felt that he’s about to come, when his thrust became deeper and faster. Alexander’s hands grabbed for my breasts as he released himself within me, and we stayed in that position for a few moments.

“Your father is coming home tomorrow,” he informed me about my father, which of course, I already knew about it.

“Good for him,” I replied.

“I decided to tell him about us, Emma.” He said.

“Why?” I asked him and he furrowed his forehead in confusion. “Do you love me?”

“I want you to be mine forever,” he replied.

I shrugged off my shoulders and looked away. His response could be romantic but it wasn’t what I expected to hear from him. Ever since he hasn’t mentioned his feelings for me. “It’s up to you, Xander.” I chose not to argue with him because it’s useless.

“You look disappointed,” he noticed.

“I don’t know. Do you think that sex can make us happy for the rest of our lives?” I wanted to hear his opinion about the matter, or he would slip into admitting his feelings for me.

“Let’s take it one day at a time,” he answered.

How could he say something that made me happy and sad at the same time? “Do you love me?” For the second time, I asked him.

Alexander stared at me and said, “Love takes time, Emma. All I know is that I am happy with you, and we’re compatible. Aren’t you happy when you’re with me? Can we start by being happy together?”

By all means, the man was right. However, I already knew that I love him.“Fair enough,” I replied, and adjusted my clothing away from him.

Alexander smiled, and after he put back his clothes on, he went outside to check something. Alone in my room, I stared outside and considered my options with regards to the man who made me feel whole and incomplete at the same time.