Chapter 1

VERONICA

I smiled contentedly as I look around our neighborhood , I inhaled deeply feeling the cold fresh breeze of a morning air.

“ Veron! Take care okay?” my mother yelled from the window of our house and I just nod at her and gave her a thumbs up before walking down the road.

I’m on my way to a job interview and I’m positive that this time I’ll be able to pass this and have a stable job for my whole life! After I got the job, I’ll make sure to buy my own lot and build my own house , so that our neighbors would stop from meddling with my life saying that I’m just a good for nothing brat who only knows how to talk nonsense things.

“ Huh! This is the day that I’ll make everyone regret those things they have told me! And I’ll make sure that I’ll be there laughing at them while they are begging for my forgiveness ha ha ha “ I said and laughed devilishly while looking up to the sky with both of my arms on my waist.

I shake my head as I realize that what I’m doing is embarrassing and decided to continue walking towards the path of success!

I confidently shove away the invisible dirt on my coat at my shoulder and took a glance at my imitation g-shock watch as I stand with my chin up as I wait for the bus to arrive.

I cleared my throat when a bus stopped in front of me.

I intentionally turned my head quickly to make my hair move just like those at the shampoo commercials but a small pained gasped escape from my lips.

Ouch, I think I just stretched a vein making me unable to move my head anymore because of pain.

I heard some irritating laughter from behind and I found a group of high school students laughing at me.

“ Tsk!” I stated and move quickly to get in the bus without moving my head .

Damn, it hurts, why did I even tried to imitate those models who did those shampoo commercials? Did they hurt their neck too while doing that?

I tried moving my neck but it just made it more painful. I think I have a stiff neck !

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“ We’ll call you Ms Ramirez to give you an update , thank you for your time” he stated and smiled at me.

What he just said is just an unclear statement that I’m not hired for the job.

I forced a smile and then excused myself , I tried my best to ignore the pain in my neck as the interview is going on but I still wasn’t able to be hired.

I bit my lower lip hard as I can to stop myself from shedding tears, maybe it’s because of the stiff neck, it does hurt a lot.

I inhaled deeply , I can feel my eyes stinging. It’s not that bad Veron, besides being rejected is not new to you, you’ve been rejected how many times already , you should’ve gone immune to this kind of situations.

I quickly go inside the girl’s comfort room hoping that I’ll get comforted here just like what it is called.

“ It’s okay, you just need to send your resume to other companies and you’ll surely end up having a stable job. You just need to s-strive harder “ I stated in front of the mirror trying to lift up my mood.

I stared at my reflection intently , adoring my own beauty but my eyes slowly widened in shock as I noticed something terrible in my gorgeous face.

“ I have a freaking dirt in my eyes!” I bursted out while I look at the mirror unbelievably .

Damn, how long? No wonder the interviewer rejected me because in the first place I don’t look presentable! What the actual fuck!

“ You little shit “ I whispered and removed it from my beautiful eyes.

I wasn’t able to check my appearance before going inside the interviewing room because I’ve been enduring the pain in my neck! And all this time, all this time I have a fucking eye dirt? How dare them for not making me know!

That’s why everyone’s eyeing me weirdly while trying their best not to laugh loudly, all this time I’ve been , I-I’ve been- damn! I’m leaving, this is embarrassing! Fucking embarrassing!

My image had been destroyed, crushed and burned. I don’t have any confidence left to show the world my face.

You’re life is now over Veron, everyone will forever remember how unpresentable and unhygienic of a person you truly are.

I covered my face and quickly left the building. My pride has left my body and soul, I’m a jobless, loveless and pride-less girl now.

I opened my wallet as I sat sadly on a park’s bench. I don’t have that much of money anymore, I badly need to find a new job now.

“ I wish that my life would change, at least just a little tiny bit of change” I murmured to myself as I stare blankly on the open space.

The wind suddenly blows hard and a piece of paper hit my face.

“ Huh? What’s this?” I stated and look at it intently,

“ Eehh? What would I do with this actor’s picture? I wished for a change not a picture of someone I won’t even have the chance to meet in person “ i grunted still staring at the picture.

I know this actor, he’s Yael if I’m remembering right. Well I must say he’s really hot, from those pair of expressive brown eyes to his small pointed nose and his pouty lips.

He really looks so manly and handsome. No wonder a lot of girls and even gays are flocking over him, also he has a great talent when it comes to acting, all in all this guy is as high as heaven compared to me.

“ Well, I think I should keep this since the wind gave it to me” I stated and grinned as I slowly and gently put his picture together with my resumes .

“ ehem “ a chubby lady coughed while staring intently at me. She looks dirty and pitiful.

“ Sorry Miss, I don’t have any excess money to give you but I do have medicine for colds and cough, “ I stated and opened my purse when she spoke,

“ give me Yael back “ she stated and eyed me dangerously,

“ Y-Yael?” I asked unable to process what she said, my eyes widened when I realized what does she mean by her statement.

“ O-Oh sorry, it just flew right to my face and I didn’t know that you own it “ I stated panicking and get Yael’s picture and handed it to her.

She was about to walk away from me when I hold her in the hand and gave her some money,

“ I know that Yael is really handsome but please don’t waste money for those kind of things when you can’t even buy food for yourself. Here take this, I hope I was able to help you with that few- “

“ Miss, I’m not a beggar “ she stated making me gasped in shock.

I eyed her slowly from head to toe still unable to believe what she just said.

“ ehh?” I murmured and look at her with disbelief, no that can’t be, she looks just like one!

“ You!” She glared at me while pointing her finger at me , she looks like she’s trying her best to control her anger.

Because of nervousness, I panicked and run as fast as I can away from her.

I hold at a metal post while glancing back from where I came from. I’m still running out of my breath as I make sure that she didn’t follow me.

“B-beggars s-shouldn’t be trusted, I-I j-just wanted to help “ I stated while trying to gain my composure back.

Damn that chubby girl, she scared me.

YAEL

“ Damn I’m so tired “ I stayed feeling so exhausted as I close my eyes tightly.

“ Yael are you coming with us tonight? Since we already finished shooting the movie the directors and staff decided to throw a small party at a restaurant tonight , you know drinking, talking and having fun“ my manager, Reese stated .

I opened one of my eyes and stared at him,

“ You know that it’s not good if ended up drunk right?” I rolled my eyes at him.

Reese is my best friend and at the same time my manager, he knows everything about me including the fact that I’m gay.

Yeah, despite of my manly appearance, way of thinking and actions I’m attracted to the same gender, it sucks actually, cause I don’t want to be like this at the start but as time pass by I managed to accept the fact that I really am attracted to men. Well as for the other aspects , I’m pretty sure that I’m a man, a man that’s attracted only to guys, yeah fuck it.

“ don’t worry I’ll be there to monitor you, besides your next project will still be next month so you’re good to have some fun tonight “ he stated and chuckled.

“ tss fine “ I stated and closed my eyes once more to take a nap.

VERONICA

“ You didn’t pass the interview?” My mother stated sadly as she sat in front of me. I slowly nodded and let out a frustrated sigh.

“ don’t be sad Veron, I’m sure you’ll be able to find a permanent job someday. By the way , remember your cousin Felice? She contacted me earlier asking about you, since you’re not answering the phone. She’s hoping that you can stop by at her restaurant tonight cause they have VIP guests , “ mommy stated making me frown.

“ So what? I don’t want to go there just so she can brag her successful business right in my face, no way-“

“ Veron! You don’t have to be jealous about others success because they surely have been through hardships to earn that, and besides she’s asking if you can go and serve as a waitress for tonight? The VIP are a bunch of famous actors and actresses! She just thought that it would make you happy , oh and she’ll pay you double” mommy cut me off from my tantrums.

My eyes sparkled in delight because of what she stated ,

“ she’ll pay me double? Damn, I need to get ready and go to her place right now!” I stated excitedly and run towards my room.

I’m going to earn money today! Money, money, I’ll buy something delicious on my way back home after this job!

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“ The customers are already leaving, “ Felice stated , I grunted because I wasn’t able to see the actors since only two waitresses are allowed to enter the VIP room.

I’m just here to guide some of the customers who’ll ask for the toilet’s direction.

“ yeah , it’s quite tiring but you’ll pay me double right?” I stated happily as I remember her promise and then look at her.

Her eyes widened and signal me to be quiet.

“ Shh! That’s a secret Veron, I’m only paying you double because you’re my cousin , it’s unfair for my other employees so don’t be so loud” she shakes her head while looking at me unbelievably.

“ Fine, can I drink something? I’m really stressed out lately, I was in an interview earlier today and guess what? “ I told her and stop for a minute to drank straight from the bottle of some liquor.

“ Veron that’s a strong alcohol “ she hissed at me but I just ignored her statement.

“ All the time I was in the interview I have an eye dirt! Like seriously? It’s fucking embarrassing!” I continued telling her and drank once again.

Ahh, this is too strong! But that’s okay, I’m tired and depress , also my job’s already done so I can just stay here with Felice and get drunk, I’m pretty sure she won’t leave me alone here.

“ You’re a pain in the ass Veron, stay there okay? I’ll just see the guest out, “ she stated and left the room looking so stressed about me.

“ Huh! Look at that girl, leaving her beautiful cousin behind “ I murmured and continued trying out her liquors.

I laughed devilishly as I stare at them all, Felice will surely get mad if I open them right? Well I want her mad so,

Drink. Drink. Drink.

“ woah t-that’s a blast!” I stated and raised the bottle of whatever the fuck this liquor is.

“ I need to pee, Yes I badly need to pee “ I stated and slapped my face.

“ Felice! Where’s the comfort room? Aish, that good for nothing cousin, leaving me alone in this bar, how irresponsible “ I whispered to myself as I walk slowly towards the comfort room I saw earlier.

My eyes are already closing but I badly need to pee. I don’t want to cause another embarrassment here . I need to go to the comfort room.

“ Is this the girl’s toilet?” I asked myself trying to look closely at the sign,

“ Argh! Nonsense, so what if this isn’t the girl’s comfort room? I’m the only one left here, everyone left me!” I whispered weakly and tried to open the door but it won’t budge.

“ Huh? So they won’t let me use the toilet too? How mean “ I stated and look around.

Ahm I’m very dizzy, I want to sleep but I need to pee or else I’ll end up wetting my pants.

I touched between my legs as I can feel that I won’t last any longer but I touched something in the pocket of my pants . Oh! I remember, Felice gave me the keys in case we’ll need it.

“ here you are precious key “ I giggled and unlocked the door and forcefully opened it.

“ Fuck!” A deep male voice echoed throughout the room totally sobering me up.

My eyes widened in shock as I look at two men who’s extremely close to one another, one’s already topless and the other one is shockingly familiar to me.

“ Oh, gays are making out in a girl’s comfort room huh?” I stated without thinking properly but ended up letting out a shocked gasped when I finally realized who’s the familiar guy.

“ Y-Yael!” I shouted as I point out straightly at his face.

Damn, what the hell in the world is happening here!