"Please fix everything before you leave..." I reminded Lin.

After putting myself in shame, I quickly ran and locked myself inside my house. I still can't believe that I got stunned by her! I felt frustrated out of embarrassment that I had to make excuses to leave work early. I shouldn't leave my staff but I felt sick.

I admit, alright. She was sexy as hell! But how could she go out wearing that nightgown?! My gay self was awakened because of that! Oh god... The image of her body still lingered in my mind. It was covered but my imagination goes wild. 

She was beautiful... And now I feel guilty for desiring her. She has a daughter. I still assumed that the guy she was with was her partner. 

I lazily laid on the long sofa. The thought of her having a partner ruined my mood. She's probably straight. 

"Shall I remind myself again that I'm not interested?" I spat.

She's out of my league. I shouldn't involve myself with women again. Definitely not with a married woman. I did well without a partner for years so, why not now? 

“Oh god... I think I’m going crazy.” I closed my eyes emphatically, forcing her out of my mind. 

I have never felt his way before. That was our first meeting yet I could feel something building inside me upon seeing her. I was once fascinated by a woman during my teenage years but other than that, nothing.

It was smooth at first but when things went south, I lost my interest in women, and that girl, Lexin Santos just awakened my sleeping chastity. 

My chastity came to life. Should I start getting worried? I groaned inwardly. Sid would probably laugh at me for having a problem because of a woman.

I stared at the ceiling. She's having a coffee now. Was she alone though? She only ordered one coffee. My insides were itching to know the answer so I got up, ran to the kitchen, and looked for the bread Sid made earlier. 

I covered it with aluminum foil and reheated the bread in the oven, then put it in a kraft paper bag. When the realization hit me, I suddenly threw the bag away from me, pulling my hair as I leaned against the kitchen counter.

"No, no... What the hell am I doing?!" This felt so weird.

Why am I acting this way?! This is so annoying. I just met her yet I'm acting like a sucker bitch who's itching to be scratch. Like hell, I was left untouched for years, and seeing her made my insides throb. What I'm feeling right now is maybe, lust... 

I'm desiring her and it feels so right. I took a deep breath and took the bag on the table. I made an effort to reheat the bread, so I might as well give her. Sid's bread is the best after all. I'm silently praying that she would like it, though. If not, I would probably tell her that a friend of mine made it, not me. 

When I arrived at her door, I sighed and jutted my bottom lips out, redirecting the air-flow to my long bangs. My black hair fanned upwards before resettling just over my eyes, but it got swayed by the cold breeze, so I had to step aside to fix my bangs on the glass window. 

"This is annoying..." I mumbled. I had to remind myself again why I'm here. 

I have a new neighbor. In order to have a good relationship with her, as an acquaintance, of course, I have to shower them with kindness. It wasn't plasticity or something.

I genuinely wanted to be friends with them not because I find Lexin hot, and certainly not due to how my body reacted upon seeing her, but for the reason that it has been ages since I got a girl next door. I never had a neighbor. 

The door opened and I immediately stopped fixing my hair, stepping aside to see Alex peeking on the door. I coughed fakely, preparing myself for I don't know why. 

"Oh... hi?" I couldn't come up with good greetings. Like a controlled robot, I handed her the bag. The child's face lit up. She turned her head behind her, smiling. 

"Mom, the girl next door has something for us!" she shouted. 

My forehead creased. She has been addressing me as the girl next door. Since earlier, I noticed the sly smile forming on her lips as if she was hiding something. Or maybe I was being paranoid again? God, she's just a child for fuck's sake! And here I am, thinking about secrets. 

Seriously, Aya? You're being unreasonable. 

"That's a freshly baked-bread, Alex. I just thought of sharing those delicacies with you since we're now a neighbor, right?" I smiled awkwardly. "Tell me how it tastes like, okay? If you..." I was caught off guard when Lexin showed up. 

My eyes quickly examined her from head to toe. Unlike earlier, she was now wearing decent clothes. Well, navy shorts and a spaghetti white hanging top, revealing her vertical belly button. 

I don't have any problems with how one should dress up. I won't judge but, Lexin... I'm not judging her either! I just hate how my body reacted to this. I mean, I wasn't like this until her. And why wore such revealing clothes in front of others? What if it wasn't me who knocked?

"Was that the bread we smelled earlier?" she questioned while staring at me. 

"Huh? Um... yes? I think so..."

"Lame," her eyes went to Alex. "Get inside, love." Alex obliged.

"That was... uh, bread. If you like it, let me know," my voice almost cracked because of nervousness. 

She chuckled. Good god... Why can't I take my eyes off her?! I felt like I was hypnotized! Her eyes were too deep and I got drowned with it. I wanted to withdraw my eyes but her dominant stares forbid me. 

"It's cold out here," she mentioned. That was when cold sipped through me. I totally forgot about the weather. 

I rubbed my arms. "I should get going."

"Well, we were about to watch movies. You can join us." I was surprised but didn't show it. 

"No, no... I still have something to do but, thanks for the invite." 

"I ordered three boxes of pizza. It would be put to waste if we just eat alone." Then why ordered three?! I wanted to ask but held myself. "Our visitor for today can't make it so, I thought of inviting you since you're here," she continued.

Oh... My mind went back to my made-up excuse. I don't have anything to do right now aside from making calls. I would check the situation in my coffee shop and other than that, nothing. I mostly work at night as my brain functions well at nighttime. 

"If you insist, why not?" I hesitated. 

She eyed me for a moment which made me a bit conscious. As I did earlier, her eyes pierced through my body. From head to toe and I don't know if I should be thankful because I wore shorts that showed my best asset, my thick and long legs. 

She let out a small smile. "Get inside..." her voice was low. 

Lexin stepped aside, opening the door wide. I stared at it for a second before bringing my feet to walk inside. I sighed deeply which made me stop on my spot. Damn... she smells so good! Her sweet scent had me intoxicated. It urged me to screw everything and just go down on her.

"This is torture..." I whispered to myself. 

I'm hoping not to regret this decision of mine. This was a mistake in the first place. 

"Don't hold yourself back from coming. We're just alone, no one would bite you here in my territory." 

I stilled on her remarks. My throat became so dry that I had to gulp many times. Her voice sounded serious and maybe, it was just me thinking that her words have a double meaning. I closed my eyes emphatically, then smiled at her when I opened them. 

"Okay, thank you..." My lips trembled.

I mentally slapped my forehead because of my response. I could hear her voice saying lame inside my head over and over again and I couldn't blame her for that. I'm not a conversationalist. I lack social skills, so I don't wonder why there are only a few people on my friend's list. 

"The movie theater is on the second floor, turn left and look for the sign." 

I was about to ask about the sign but instead, I nodded and never bothered to speak again. I don't want to put myself in shame for the nth time. I guess my social skills just showed up whenever I'm inside a cell. 

Sighing, I walked silently and proceeded to the second floor, not minding anything around me.