I guess I will not really get anything I wanted. I must just give up, even though I still haven't pushed my luck. There are some things that won't work and are not really worth one's effort. Like Lexin... 

I know in the end we'll not make it even if I try my best to make things work between us. We will only waste time if we spend more on each other. It's better not to continue my obsession with her. The earlier, the better. 

Things just won't go our way. Whatever we do, it's not worth it in the end. 

"Take care, everyone!" I smiled at my staff and waved my hand. 

"You sure you won't go with us, Ms. Aya?" Lin asked as she followed me to my car. 

They were planning for a girls' night out. Although I often come with them whenever I feel like it, today isn't the right time to celebrate and be with them after knowing about Lexin. It was as if I was struck by a flash of lightning that made my heart numb. 

An opportunity? Freakin' no. I thought wrong.

"Nope, Lin. Just enjoy the night with the girls," I answered, getting the keys out in my hand carry. 

"It's Saturday..." she insisted. "We usually hang out every Saturday, Ms. Aya. Of course, with the staff. It's like a tradition."

I let out a frustrated sigh. "I'm busy, Lin."

"But..."

After reading Lexin's biography, I just wanted to tire myself. I overworked today to divert my attention. I also can't help but scold myself mentally. Why am I so affected? It's not like we have built a strong bond.

We just met and as clear as the sky, what I felt for her was just pure lust that I could easily get rid of by maybe, trying to go down on other girls?

"I need to rest. Just enjoy the rest of the night."

I opened the driver's seat and went inside. I was about to close it when she put her hand on the car door, refraining me from leaving. I hissed silently, looking at her with an annoyed expression. 

"I could drive you home if you're tired." She bent down, staring at me with a sly smile on her lips. 

"What's with you now?" I raised my brow. "You're my employee and you're acting like that in front of me?" 

"You're not my boss at times like this, Aya. Work hours are over, so just let me play with you for a while." I jerked when she moved her hand to my lap, squeezing me. "Stop seeing me as Lin, the assistant at least, for now, can you open your eyes and let it be satisfied by staring at my body?" 

I just noticed that she was wearing a fitted tube top and obviously pimping herself out on me. If today was just a normal day, I would have noticed it earlier. But even if I do, I wouldn't still make an effort to have her mounds inside my mouth. 

She's Lin. The assistant, as she said. I will not do those who work for me. 

I took a peek at her breast before looking at her, sighing in disapproval. 

"Take your hand away from me, Lin. And forget that this happened." 

My gaze slipped over her side, glancing at the other girls who were quite far from us. I could hear their inaudible voices, no one seemed to notice our situation which I'm glad. I don't want them to see us in this state, they would imagine things for sure. 

The last thing I want is for issues to grow between us. 

Pursing her lips, she stood straight and stepped backward. Without looking, I slammed the door and started driving my way home. I managed to not think of her action as I drove. She will regret it tomorrow, or later when she made up her mind.

Well, I hope so. 

I almost jumped on my seat when my phone rang in the middle of driving. Cursing, I slowed down and reached for my phone on my bag resting on the passenger seat. Seeing the caller made my mouth drop open slightly.

I immediately pulled over and took a deep breath before pressing the green button. 

"Where are you?" her cold voice seeps through me. She didn't even say hi. 

"On the way home," my eyes went to the car that passed by. "Why did you call? How's Alex, by the way?" I started driving again.

"Go home..." her voice was low. "I'll be waiting for you to come home, Amaia." 

"Why?" It came out as a whisper. 

"I want to see you," she answered softly. 

"We saw each other this morning."

She hummed. "That's not counted. You were being rude earlier and I didn't like it." 

"You were being bossy, so I had no choice. I also didn't like it." I chuckled. "But seriously, you should sleep, Lexin. I might come home very late, don't wait for me."

"I thought you were going home?" I thought for a second that her voice has a hint of sadness. 

"Yeah but..." I licked my lower lip. I must stick to the plan.

The way my heart pounded upon hearing her voice saddens me. Not for anyone but, for myself. If this would continue, I might forget everything and say fuck off, I only live once. Make the best out of it, shoot your shot, and don't mind anything as it doesn't matter. 

But sadly, it does. Sure, I may not care about my name and reputation but, she has her own to take care of. 

Besides, she's Lexin. 

"Go home, Aya. Just for tonight." 

"Now you're being bossy again." I rolled my eyes. "Just sleep and don't wait for me. Besides, why would you wait? You sounded like my girlfriend."

"Is being your girlfriend what it takes to make you go home?" I could sense the sarcasm in her voice.

"Well, if you could offer me something better than that, I might go home." I jokingly uttered.

I glanced at the side view mirror before making my way inside the entrance gate of Summerville. Once I turn in the right direction, that would be game over. Says I just give her what she wanted, for me to go home. 

"Answer me, Lexin..." I breathed heavily. 

"Submit yourself to me tonight." 

"Lowkey asking me to have sex with you?" I teased. 

"Yes," she gushed. "Have sex with me just for tonight, Aya. Just for tonight."

"What? A one-night stand? Is that what you're trying to imply?" My lips formed into a thin line.

I turned to the right and stopped. From my position, I could see her sitting on the bench across our homes, phone in her ear, while she had a chip bag laying on her lap. The bench was under a post so I could see her clearly beneath the light. 

"Is that you?" she asked when her head turned in my direction. "Aya, is that you?" 

I blew the horn once, letting her know. "I'm not going to agree with you." 

"You want a long-term sex agreement?"

"Are we seriously talking about this over the phone?"

"Just answer yes or no," she demanded.

"I don't know!" I fret. "And you really have the confidence to offer me such an agreement, ey? What if I say no?" 

"Then just agree with me tonight. One night, Aya. Just one night."

"What will happen after this night, Lexin?"

A lot of things could happen after this night if I ever agree. Or maybe everything would just come down to one thing. It's either we'll continue seeing each other, or totally cut the ties that bind us after this one rebellious night. The latter would be great, it's the benefit I would get. Slipping away from her was my original plan after all. 

But am I ready? 

This would prove that what I really wanted from the start was just her body. Yet I know deep inside me, it wasn't just lust. I'm genuinely attracted to Lexin, physically, yes. And there's something that urged me to get to know her better. 

But to think that she offered me this agreement which I didn't expect, I couldn't help but think. She's attracted to me, sexually... 

"I'll go back to the city by tomorrow, Aya."

My forehead knotted. "But you just moved in."

"I wasn't the one who moved in, it was my sister." 

"Pardon?" I vividly remember what Alex said to me that day.

I went out of the car and walked in her direction but, stopping midway when she stood up. 

"Well, I just helped my sister to move in. She was away for days and I decided to stay for a bit to unwind, taking a break away from the city."

"Then, who was the guy..." I trailed off. 

"It was her husband," she said.

"Oh..." was all I could say. I hung up the phone and quickly ran towards her, holding both of her hands as I stared at her intently. "Then let's do it, Lexin. Tonight, in my place..."