I purposely slowed down my movements because I didn't want to scare her or force her roughly. I gave her enough reaction time to decide. My heart was pounding, even though I was ready to, at any moment, become frustrated by her refusal.
'Ya' pressed her hands against my chest, her eyes still as calm as water, unable to tell if it was rejection or acquiescence. When I boldly put my lips together, her eyes slowly closed, and my heart finally let go. As long as she had the slightest intention of refusing, I would definitely stop immediately.
However, 'Xiao Ya' didn't resist; she instead pressed over and gently bit my lips.
I understood at once that this kind of acceptance could be read by anyone. I slowly kissed her warm and moist, like the stamen of a flower, lips, sniffing her warm and fragrant nostrils, while stretching out my hands to wrap around her waist.
''Xiao Ya'' seemed to be responding to me tenderly and obediently went to my arms, and her arms slowly wrapped around my neck. As if I were encouraged, the tip of my tongue slipped between her lips, and those snow-white teeth opened gently to welcome my entry, touching each other in a slapdash manner.
'Xiaoya' was clearly aroused, her eyes slightly closed, a hint of scarlet on her face, and her breath burning. My lips slid down her cheek, slowly sliding down to her neck, and she then tilted her head back helplessly, allowing me to kiss her inch by inch. As my lips slid down and buried themselves in her chest, I heard her heart beating rapidly, like a running rabbit, and her bulging breasts under her nightgown rising and falling slightly.
My hands slowly slipped behind me into her nightgown, caressing her smooth spine. The top two buttons had been silently undone, and the big, full, round white rabbit popped out at once. I trembled slightly as I kissed the rounded curves, my lips nudging to try and rub away the piece of cloth that covered the peak.
'Xiaoya''s body trembled for a moment as if she were electrocuted, then came to her senses. She reached out and pressed her hand against my lips, opened her eyes, and looked at me. A hint of guilt flashed in her eyes, and she said, "Brother, no, we can't do this; we're 'cousins'". I was a bit frustrated in my heart; I wanted to say something.
Xiao Ya seemed to understand what I wanted to say and looked at me with a hint of a guilty expression. Countless voices in my heart were struggling, but in the end, I still didn't want to hurt her. I am not qualified to give her a bright and happy future. Too many things are just like dreams, which cannot be realized. I loosened my hands, trying to dispel the surge in my heart.
'Xiao Ya' was a bit touched and said, "Brother, thank you."
I said awkwardly, "Oh, who let me be your brother? How could I want to hurt you?"
'Xiaoya' obviously saw my embarrassment and frustration, deliberately changing the subject, and said, "Brother, tell me about'sister-in-law', how did you get together?". 
I was a little strange and asked, "Why are you suddenly talking about her?"
Xiaoya stammered, "It's nothing; I'm just curious." But her face turned scarlet all of a sudden.
I asked with slight doubt, "What do you want to hear?"
Seeing that I agreed, Xiao Ya became interested. "How did you and'sister-in-law' meet?"
I hesitated and said, "How to say, 'Xin Ya' is my college classmate, although not a class, just went to college, I am not a good student, rebellious period of me, with the class of those bad boys mixed into a piece of the books have a kind of contempt, despite the smart, but lazy learning, in short, it is not reading seriously, as if reading seriously made me look disgraced.
'Xiao Ya' said with a surprised face, "Brother, you actually used to be like this?".
I said, "At that time, I was in the rebellious period of youth; besides, I lived in school, and my parents couldn't control me even if they were far away." 
Xiaoya asked curiously, "What happened then? Can you graduate from college and get a degree even if you play like this?"
Looking at 'Xiaoya's' curious and childish expression, I recalled while saying: "When I was a junior in college, the whole class had a big open class, and a pretty girl caught my attention, with a tender and round face and graceful curves, which made my heart beat like crazy, and she's the one you're with now! She is your current'sister-in-law', 'Xin Ya' classmate.
'Xin Ya' not only looks beautiful, academic performance is okay, although the family is not very good. But at that time, I was already a notorious punk in school. In her eyes, a dude like me was naturally the type she hated the most.
I once entrusted someone to give her flowers; she knew that I sent them after, did not even look at them, and were directly thrown into the trash. Later, I didn't send her any more flowers, not even a note, and the first time I spoke to her was in the library.
I realized that 'Xinya' would go to the library almost every day, so I ran to the library every day, pretending to look up information, waiting for Xinya to appear.
After a long time, I suddenly realized that I had gotten used to going to the library and reveling in the sea of books. Waiting for 'Xinya' was no longer the only purpose. When I met up with 'Xinya' by chance, I just smiled and nodded at each other.
'Xinya' is obviously surprised at my change; not in the previous attitude, she sometimes encounters problems and unconsciously comes together to discuss them. In this way, we slowly began to communicate, but never anything beyond the content of the study.
Gradually, the way 'Xinya' looked at me had a gentle and fond meaning, but I couldn't know what was in her heart. Still, I tried my best to restrain myself, and every time I was outside the library, looking at her gradually departing back, I would secretly swear that I would chase after her.
My own metamorphosis, so that I myself was surprised, did not take much time, and my grades have been among the top. On the Mid-Autumn Festival, I quietly stood on the floor of 'Xinya's' dormitory and waited for an afternoon, and when she finally appeared, I handed over the large bouquet of flowers.
I knew she would be surprised, amazed, laughing, crying, puzzled, and even cursing, but she would not refuse. Thus, Xinya became my girlfriend.
'Xiao Ya' looked at me with a face of longing and admiration and said, "Brother, you still have such a romantic experience." I sighed and said, "Romantic? Look at 'Xin Ya' now, every day thinking about buying a house in 'Pujiang', in case she meets a 'Song Siming', maybe one day she will really become that 'Guo Seaweed' is not certain."
Xiao Ya has obviously seen the TV series "Snail Dwelling" and knows the stories of "Song Siming" and "Guo Haizao" that I am talking about, she said with a cheeky smile. I know what I said about 'Song Siming' and 'Guo Haizao', and I said with a smile, "You don't have to buy a house in Pujiang; you can buy a house back home; there is a place to live on the line; as long as there is a place of love, it's a home."
Then she asked, "You did not tell her about these things?"
I shook my head and said, "I'm a man; a man's ability, not by the mouth to say out, to try to do well, is the most important." 
'Xiao Ya' said, "Brother, I'm worshipping you more and more; my sister-in-law will definitely be happy following you too."
I deliberately said, "We'll have to ask her if she's happy or not; why do you want me to describe the details of last night?"
"Hate..." Xiao Ya's face flushed with crimson again.