At night, I tossed and turned, unable to sleep, not because of lust but because of the memories that 'Xiaoya' had evoked. The campus life I told 'Xiaoya' about was only a very small part of my memories, and the ugly aspect I never dared to mention to 'Xiaoya'.
When I was a freshman in college, I liked basketball and joined the varsity team. The captain of our basketball team was called 'Wang Yongjun'; he had the same last name as me, and his name was only one word different. He always wanted to worship brothers with me, saying that we were three hundred years ago. We were originally a family, and now that we've finally met, it's considered fate. I looked at his sincere face, so I agreed.
'Wang Yongjun' is a year older than me, tall and muscular, and taking off his clothes and those angular abs always attracts the adoring eyes of boys and girls. 'Wang Yongjun' is a good hand at both playing and fighting, so he naturally has high prestige in the team.
Under the leadership of 'Wang Yongjun', he might not have won many games, but he rarely lost in fights. In that rebellious era, 'Wang Yongjun' was fine with running to the girls' dormitory and seducing female students. Now that I think about it, I probably learned a lot of my bad habits from hanging out with him.
Wang Yongjun' has a girlfriend, called 'Hu Lina', with me in the same class. Hu Lina' is naturally charming and sexy; her body is sexy; her high breasts make the boys salivate; and we all call her 'Little Fox' behind her back. Every time there is a game, she must be next to the 'Wang Yongjun' cheer.
That day, after the game was over, it was already dark, the gym was quiet, and the lights were sparsely turned off. I thought everyone had finished it, showered, ready to go to the locker room to get clothes. When I heard a woman's screams from inside, I was shocked, rushed to run in, and then saw 'Wang Yongjun' and 'Hu Lina' warmly entwined together.
As I hurriedly ran out, I bumped into someone, and when I looked up, it was actually 'Li Ling'. She apparently also heard Hu Lina's screams. I hurriedly pulled her and said, "Don't go in; there's something going on inside."
Li Ling panicked and said, "There must be something; I heard Hu Lina screaming so badly; let's go and take a look." 
I pulled her and said, "Don't go in; they're in the middle of something." I didn't know how to describe it; the first thing that came to mind was that I actually couldn't think of the words to describe it.
'Li Ling's' face instantly turned red and she asked, "You...saw everything?". I nodded and hurriedly shook my head again.
Li Ling kicked me fiercely, then said, "Why are you still staring here? Haven't you had a good time yet?" And with that, she pulled me away quickly.
'Li Ling' likes me; I know it, but I don't have any feelings for her. 'Li Ling' is a small and delicate girl, not tall, with a with a flat chest, like an undeveloped child. I always flirt with him, saying that she is the Princess of Peace. When Li Ling got angry, she would kick me a few times and say, "The little fox has big breasts; if you like it, go and grab it."
'Li Ling' is right; I did have thoughts about 'Hu Lina'. Youthful, rebellious period, curious about everything. Once we went to an out-of-school tournament, after the game, I heard a woman's scream again in the locker room. I was already very familiar with 'Hu Lina's' screams; she always sounded clear and crisp, like a lark. And this time the voice was sharp and urgent, like a crow hit by a slingshot, obviously not that 'little fox'. I hesitated for a long time whether or not to tell 'Hu Lina', but in the end I held back because Wang Yongjun is my good brother after all.
In the 'Li Ling' ignored me during that time, 'Hu Lina' attitude towards me, but a big change, she looked at my eyes, affectionate, and also did not go to find the 'Wang Yongjun' She didn't go to 'Wang Yongjun' either.
One day after school, I found a note in the textbook: "KTV singing tonight; remember to come, oh." There was a 'little fox' drawn on the back. It turned out she knew we called her 'Little Fox'.
I thought that when we went to the KTV at night, 'Wang Yongjun' and 'Li Ling' would be there, but when I pushed the door in, there was only 'Hu Lina'.
I asked curiously, "Where's Wang Yongjun?" 
Hu Lina' was a bit upset and replied, "We've all broken up; what's the point of mentioning him?"
That night, I realized that 'Hu Lina' sang beautifully. We sang in such a haphazard way; 'Hu Lina' also bought beer; she sang while asking me to drink with her; her drinking capacity is obviously not as good as mine; her face soon blushed.
'Hu Lina' is undoubtedly a beautiful woman, half-drunk, her scarlet face under the dim light of the room, looking at me with a mesmerized gaze.
We leisurely drank beer and sang songs. When she sang 'Happy Breakup', she finally couldn't help but cry in a low voice, then threw away the microphone and jumped into my arms and cried non-stop, while mumbling curses under her breath: ''This son of a bitch, dead son of a bitch, I don't want to see him ever again...''.
I looked at the person in my arms in a bit of panic, wanting to hug her but not having the courage. 'Hulina' cried for a while, looked up, and said, "Do you like me?". Her topic shifted inexplicably, and I was made to freeze, a little hesitant, not knowing how to answer her, so I shook my head.
'Hulina' wrenched her hands over my face and pursued, "If you don't like me, then why did you send me the Walkman?" Her eyes stared at me as if they could see through my heart. I answered honestly, "Because I don't like girls crying, and when my 'cousin' cried when I was little, I would give her things."
'Hulina' laughed, her eyes dripping staring at me, looking at my heart a little hairy, like a lie was broken, blushing a little panic. But she didn't say anything; she just looked at me quietly.
The room echoed with that 'Most Familiar Stranger' music, and in the next second, 'Hulina' probed and pressed into my arms, biting my lips, her tongue sticking out to pry them open, and then teasingly reached in.
I've kissed 'Xiaoya' before, but I've never had someone drill their tongue in. That soft tongue was like a small snake, running back and forth in my mouth, like a fire igniting my desire; my face burned hot. I shrank back a bit in a bit of a panic, trying to hide that embarrassing situation.
Instead, she came up to me, took my hand, placed it on her ample breasts, and asked, "Do you like them?"
I wanted to draw it back but was a bit reluctant to do so, and when I heard the little fox's words, I subconsciously nodded my head and hurriedly shook it again.
"Is that because you think I'm dirty?" She asked again.
I remembered Li Ling's words and didn't know how to say them. Looking at the way she was looking at me with a serious face, I was afraid of answering wrongly and causing her to be sad again, so I hurriedly shook my head.
"Thank you for being so good to me." 'Hurina' smiled gently.
I was embarrassed and didn't know the initiative. 'Hu Lina' looked at my expression and slowly unbuttoned her clothes, a pair of rounded plumpness, in the black lace underwear lined with high craggy, like a pair of proud princesses.
'Hulina' said with a delicate smile, "Do you like it?" with a blush on her face, like she was drunk.
"Uh-huh." I didn't equivocate this time. 'Hulina' pushed me away and tilted her body slightly, winking, "Do it yourself if you like it; do whatever you want, as long as you don't hurt me."
My mind was blank; I only felt hot blood surging upwards, as if I could no longer remember 'Hu Lina's' appearance. Hurriedly turned his back and fixed his mind and said, "Stop it, I and 'Wang Yongjun' but brothers, you can't test me like this; even if you and I want to do something, you have to break up with 'Wang Yongjun' and then say it again; it's called brotherly righteousness.".
After saying that, I pulled open the door and flew out. All the way running back to the dormitory, my heart cannot calm down. I think about the scene just now—too exciting, too curious, too want.
From that day onwards, I was like doing something wrong; when I saw the 'little fox', I was like a mouse seeing a cat, trying my best to avoid it for fear of not being able to control it and arousing my own stupid thoughts. See, 'Wang Yongjun' is not as natural as before; always feel guilty.
Until 'Li Ling' blocked me in the dormitory that day.
'Li Ling' looked at me; her eyes seemed to be about to burst into flames, and she said, "You went to KTV with 'Hu Lina' to sing; why didn't you tell me?"
I was embarrassed; I didn't know how much she knew about what happened that day, and I forced myself to joke with her, "Yo, finally willing to talk to me?"
'Li Ling' said angrily, "I'm celebrating my birthday tomorrow; I'll book a KTV room at night, and you're only allowed to come alone."
I was a little panicked because I remembered that 'Hu Lina' had been with me at the KTV that day. Could it be that 'Li Ling' knew all about it? Is 'Li Ling' aware of it and ready to judge me thoroughly? In the end, I went to book a KTV room.
That day, 'Li Ling' was no longer ice-cold; however, she was even more difficult for me to understand. She sang and danced like a madman on the KTV, and I was the only audience member.
Li Ling also ordered a mess of various kinds of alcohol. I didn't understand what she was trying to do, so I just went along with her and let her go crazy.
Under the effect of alcohol, 'Li Ling's' face was red, like an excited little girl, leaning on my side. She asked in a low voice, "Don't you have any feelings for me?". .
I forced myself to calm down, patted her shoulder, and said, "You've always wanted to be my sister; isn't it good to be like this?"
'Li Ling' suddenly said, "I do not want to do what, sister; I like you!"
'Li Ling' was drunk; her mouth shivered and she said, "Tonight, you can. Don't let me disappoint." I was about to speak when she collapsed, unconscious.
I took her to the hotel, then took off the clothes she had soiled, ran to the front desk, and instructed the attendant to help me wash and dry the clothes, then when I returned to the room, 'Li Ling' was still in that position, sleeping soundly. I closed the door and quietly left the hotel.
One afternoon, 'Wang Yongjun' like that girl, in the end of the school, was a few punks blocked in the woods behind the school; rape is not, but molested for a long time; the clothes are torn; the girl desperately resisted; but the opposite is a few boys, but also often outside the mixing, ultimately taking advantage of some of the cheap.
The girl suffered a lot of aggression; the first time also, do not dare to police, not to mention, do not dare to tell parents; she only told 'Wang Yongjun'. Wang Yongjun' found those few punks, fought a vicious fight, was detained by the public security, but also removed from the school.
In those days, I lived in a stupor, until Xinya's appearance, which changed everything for me.