As I hear those words, everything inside me trembled in fear. My body instantly weakened and made me fall out of my standing. I placed my right hand towards my mouth and hushed myself as tears started flowing out of my eyes. Why I am being labeled as a murderer? On what basis? I started questioning what I did for the past month of my lost memories. I slowly stood up and voices started ringing inside my head. ‘Ji Yeon, I love you’, ‘Oppa, where are you right now?’, ‘I’m at my apartment. When will you come here? I really miss you’. My voice and a guy voice started controlling my mind while I’m in deep pain. I dashed away with all my might despite all the pain in the head that I am suffering. I went back to the tent and grabbed my phone. The voices suddenly became strong. ‘J-Ji Yeon, why are you . . . here?’, ‘Y-you c-cant b-b-e . . . here’. Despite all the pain and suffering, I safely made it back to my house. I opened the door and closed it like a kid throwing tantrums. I crouched down on a corner and put my hands on both of my ears. I can’t afford to hear any more of these. It hurt’s. It really hurts. My hands kept on trembling the whole time I was crying. Even though I covered my ears, why are still voices there? ‘Please, please, go away’ I whispered slowly as I close my eyes. As I close my eyes, the voices started to fade away. Before it completely fade away, a scene suddenly flashbacked on my memory. I entered a certain apartment and entered the room password effortlessly. As if I was the one who was living there. I opened the door and a complete darkness welcomed me in that room. I slowly entered while saying, ‘Oppa? Oppa? Are you home?’ The room was completely empty. I turned the living room lights on and sat down on the couch. I really don’t have any idea but I blanked out after sitting. I don’t know what happened. Maybe I drowsed off as I was feeling tired that day. I slowly opened my eyes and I slowly found myself lying on the cold floor. I shifted my eyes and saw a guy who was also sleeping next besides me. ‘Oppa?’ I extended my right hand towards him. I slowly looked into my hand and the fear naturally crawled over my entire body. ‘H-huh? . . . B-blood?’ my face showed a chaotic expression. I slowly rose on the floor and poked the guy sleeping next to me. No reaction. I started panicking as I held his head and looked at him closely. I started crying and tears flowed down on my eyes. ‘Oppa? Oppa?’. He didn’t react despite everything I did. I began trembling even more as I lifted up my left hand as I saw I knife covered in blood. And after that . . . ‘NOOO!’ I screamed in my room as I don’t want to remember anything anymore. Thank goodness the rooms are sound proofed so it won’t bother the neighbors. I began catching my breath while crouching in that tiny corner. I looked into my hand and slowly clenched it despite the trembling. ‘Haaa~’ I stammered while sighing in great relief as the voices dissipated. I slowly climbed towards my bed and closed my eyes while letting out a heavy sigh. I wiped my tears with my arms and began thinking deeply. I don’t know if that memory is the truth but the fact that I was there lying on the ground together with the body of that guy is true. The fact also that I held the knife as I wake up is also true. Then, did I really kill someone? A fragile innocent girl like me? Why? If I really did kill him, then why did I cry? Are those tears fake or real? Which parts are true and which part are false? I kept on letting out a heavy sigh. But still the fact that Tae Hyeon approached me first kept on bugging my mind. What’s the relationship between Tae Hyeon and the guy in memories? Are they acquainted? As I was deep in my thoughts, never did I know, I passed out. I waked out of my bed suffering a minor cold. I passed out without changing my clothes and didn’t even cover myself with a blanket. Even during breakfast, I kept on thinking about what happened last night. It’s really too much that I can’t even handle it anymore. And also the fact that I killed a person with my own hands, it’s eating my mind. If I was really the killer back then, why did the police didn’t imprison me? Why did the doctor lie about this? Am I really the killer? What in the world did I do for the past month? Just what is it? And finally, who . . . the hell am I? I started even doubting my identity because of that memory and the conversation the brothers had that night. As I was really immersed in my thoughts, the doorbell suddenly rang. I looked at the intercom and Seo Jin was there standing in front my door. As I opened the door, the silence the room had ever since that night was broken by Seo Jin’s sudden appearance. ‘Ji Yeon-ah! Surprise!’ she shouted in glee as she enter into my doorsteps. She entered my room and placed the plastic bag she brought with her on top of the living room table. She then noticed my gloomy expression and bluntly asked the reason about it. ‘Why are you so dark? Did something happened last night?’ she asked while opening a can of beer. She reached her hands towards the remote and turned on the television. ‘What the heck are these programs?’ she ranted while sipping the can of beer. Despite her acting comfortable at my place, I just stood there in front of her with my head bowed down. While comfortably changing the channels and sipping the can of beer, she naturally asked, ‘What happened? Is it something that I can’t even afford to listen to?’. I sat down next to her and whispered, ‘It’s just . . . too much even for you to handle. S-so I think i-it’s better to not tell you what it is’. She just glanced at me and continued watching the television while letting out a heavy sigh. ‘If it does really too much then don’t. Just remember that no matter how complicated that is, I’m just here willing to listen to it, okay?’ she humbly said. I nodded in agreement and began opening a can of beer. The two of us drank in our hearts content that morning and passed out. I waked up later that night with her waking me up. She also already cleaned up the mess in the living room and started preparing to head out. ‘Should we grab something to it?’ she politely asked. I just smiled at her and nodded as a response. Even though she is too strong compared to me, the differences between us didn’t really matter that much. She’s also like that back in college. She’s the one who talked to me first and begged to be my friend. I was touched by that and agreed day after. Just like before, the she today is simply no different. Just like how I like her before, the feelings I felt I had with her will never change or just how I thought. After leaving my house, we went to a nearby food tent outside. ‘Auntie! Give us two large bowls of your delicious jjampong and a bottle of soju and beer. Please give us a lot of side dishes, okay?’ she shouted energetically. The auntie brushed a smiled at her and said, ‘Okay!’. I looked at her with such worried face and said, ‘Ya! Why ordered a large bowl? You know that I can’t eat spicy food right?’. She looked at me with such straight face and said, ‘I know. That’s why I ordered it. I don’t know what happened yesterday that made you sulk like this that’s why I ordered a jjampong. Just cry, don’t held it in’. After hearing her reasoning, I sighed with a smile in my face and joked around, ‘I already cried a lot yesterday night though? I don’t think any more tears will come out of my eyes even if I quenched it real hard’. She then changed her expression suddenly and just smirked in embarrassment. ‘Really? Then I’ll eat your portion then’ she said. I gave him a disappointed look in my eyes and said, ‘Isn’t that your goal from the start? You really didn’t want to cheer me on, aren’t you? I should’ve known what a glutton freak you are’. She instantly caught up on what I’m doing and instantly played around with me, ‘So you noticed, huh? Hahaha~ I should’ve played safe. What a pity’. As the jjampong and the side dishes are being served, she just started digging in on her bowl. I looked at her with such worries and asked, ‘What happened to your diet? Did you completely gave up?’. ‘I’ll just work on it again next week. The jjampong is really good that I might order another serving’ she reasoned out while eating like a madman. We stayed at the tent for an hour at most. I was surprised when she started ordering another portion after finishing each bowl. You’ll wonder how she managed to eat 10 portions of large bowl jjampongs despite her appearance within an hour. Her stomach really belonged to the demon race. It’s frightening and scary. I think she even held out a bit as she noticed that the auntie kept on staring at her with such expression. Just like I thought, as soon as we came out of the food tent, she instantly ranted about it. She looked at me with such confidence and said, ‘You know that I can even more, right? That auntie kept on staring at me making me feel uncomfortable. If I eat more, I think I’ll end up staying at the comfort room because of indigestion’. I brushed it off with an awkward giggle. Reaching the convenience store, before she left, she said, ‘Cheer up, friend. Any decisions you will make, just always remember that I’m always here rooting for you. I’ll wait till you feel comfortable on talking to me about this matter. I’m going now, see yah’. Those words, even though there’s a lot of false inside it, still it comforted me. That girl is just curious on what’s happening and by the time I reveal it, it’s either she’ll tease me or instantly murder the Tae Hyeon. That girl is overprotective towards me ever since we became friends. She stick to me like glue and whenever some guy approached me, she instantly had this ‘Fuck Off’ expression in her face. Remembering those times, I giggled in silence as I looked at her back slowly walking away. As soon as she is out of sight, I also went on my way. As I was leisurely walking at the road, my phone vibrated and rang. I grabbed my phone and as soon as I saw the caller, I instantly declined. It’s him, the one who approached me with ulterior motives. I think he still didn’t know that I already knew about his secret. But what can I do? It feels really uncomfortable to talk to him right now. I continued walking towards my apartment and the phone vibrated one last time. As I grabbed my phone and declined the call, I saw him in front of my apartment wearing such anxious expression in his face as he held his phone towards his ears. I declined the call and soon after our eyes met. I continued walking and as I reached the gate of the apartment, I ignored him and walked away like he does not even exist. As I was unsure of my feelings at that time, I was caught off guard and surprised as he grabbed my arm and hugged me from behind