I went to where she works and waited for her outside the building for 2 hours. I need to confirm something that’s why I’m being like this. Around 8 PM, she finally went out of the building. Upon seeing her, I immediately shouted her name as I called her from afar. At that time, she gave me a suspicious look in her face. She probably knew by now that she’s casually bumping into me more often. We just met 2 days ago yet we already saw each other 3 times including today. She probably thought that I’m a stalker or something, right? But what can I do? I need to confirm the strangeness I’m feeling whenever I’m with her. I assured myself by telling that it’s just pity but I still need confirmation about this. I started walking towards here. She doesn’t respond whenever I shouted her name and she seemed to be in a daze. As I looked at her, her face doesn’t look good. She looked pale and sick and suddenly made me feel worried. Does she really have a cold? Is she really sick? Series of questions started bombarding my mind. I suddenly became worried so I planned to ask her. As I finally approached her, I called her name yet she didn’t respond. She seemed to be deep in her thoughts so I called her name several times. She snapped out and reasoned out. She said that she had too many problems but I knew that she was worried by me being in here. She seemed to be anxious by my sudden appearances that made her doubt my identity. We began walking in complete silence. Just as we passed by a restaurant, I asked her to have a meal with me. She was hesitant yet she didn’t refuse or she can’t refuse. She was anxious the whole time she’s with me. To ease of her worries, I gently gave her a warm smile as we sit down. Judging by her expression, she seemed really worried by my sudden invitation. To test the waters, I brushed it off by asking an indirect question. ‘Does the restaurant doesn’t suit your taste, Ji Yeon-ssi?’ I said. I was shocked when she directly looked at me with such fiery expression in her eyes and bluntly said, ‘Ah, no. It’s just that you’re too nice and sometimes coming on too strong so it sometimes made me wonder. I’m telling you this because I hope that I won’t get the wrong impression of you’. I was dumbfounded. Her expression when she told me those words straight into my eyes was simply astonishing. Hidden behind her clumsy and timid personality is her straightforwardness and boldness. It was kind of surprising. Saying such words to a person that makes you anxious and uncomfortable. It needs a lot of courage yet a timid girl confidently blurted it out. I was awed. It’s such a first time for someone to tell me how they truly feel. I was flustered and don’t know what to say so I blurted out another lie. I told her that I’m quite dense and apologize for making her feel awful. That’s the only way for me to avoid being caught. To ward off suspicious, such lies are badly needed. The dinner was served and once again, we ate in complete silence. As I we part ways, she casually turned around. As she began to take a step, my body reacted and grabbed her hand. The words she said before we ate made me feel very complicated. It was odd. As we eat that time, I could only think of something else. When she suddenly turned around and showed me her back, I felt uneasiness at my chest. That’s why when I grabbed her hand, I asked her to be my friend despite having a flushed, flustered face as I look down. Honestly, I felt embarrassed. While I started living abroad, I don’t have any friends. But when she really considered me her friend, she became wary of me while being suspicious of my real identity. Is she really the one who murdered Jae Seung? I started contradicting what I initially believed. Initially, I approached her to let her remember the crimes she did but after what I saw for the past days, she seemed to be uninvolved in Jae Seung’s murder and was also a victim. Then what happened that day? Why is she involved with Jae Seung? What was their relationship to each other? At that exact time and place, I made changes to my plan. My goal now is to know everything that happened and catch the real murderer of Jae Seung and the one who made Ji Yeon lost her memories. As I still looked down, she gently stroked my head. At that time, all the uneasiness and strange emotions I felt totally subsided. Every time we meet, I somehow became interested in her. All the wariness I had with her turned into an excuse of seeing and spending some time knowing her. Few weeks have passed and now it’s Christmas Eve. Just like any other days, despite having a large house, not a single person greeted or even welcomed me as I climb down the stairs. A single person occupying a very large house, how depressing. Born to be taught of proper etiquettes and mannerism, it was also the cause why nobody ever dared to approach me. But Jae Seung is different. He approached me and insisted on becoming my friend. Thanks to him, I enjoyed my junior high school days together with the whole class. He is the one who became a bridge between me and the whole class whom was scared to approach at that time. That’s why probably, Ji Yeon seeing me as her friend made me feel soft. Just like how I struggled having friends, I slowly cared and understand her situation. That’s why I . . . ended up throwing the idea of making her remember as deep inside me, I know that Ji Yeon is not the type of person who can effortlessly kill someone. That’s why this time, I’ll properly tell him my real identity and the reason I approached her at first. I know that it’ll cause some sparks between us but as her friend, I can’t afford to lie anymore. I called her in the morning and it seemed like she’s on the phone talking to someone. After a few minutes, I called her once again and she immediately picked up. I invited her to celebrate Christmas Eve with me and we decided to meet at K Mall at exactly 7 PM. I don’t know but I suddenly feel excited about this. I’m just spending the holiday with a friend yet why is my heart loudly beating? Am I sick? While my heart still rapidly beating, I immediately prepared to head outside. Before heading to the mall, I decided to consult a doctor. It’s only 3 PM though so there’s no need to worry, I guess. After arriving at the hospital, I went for a full body checkup that lasted for an hour and the results stated that there’s nothing wrong with me. I desperately told this to the doctor yet he just brushed it off and insisted that there’s nothing wrong. I went to the mall one hour before and waited outside despite the cold weather. The freezing wind didn’t mind me at all as I was deep in my thought at that time. How should I bring out this topic to her? How can I let her know without her getting hurt? Is there any way? Time passed by just like that and saw her figure slowly approaching towards my direction. I smiled and waved my hands but her outfit greatly bothered me the most. At first I was concerned but when she showed an embarrassing and flustered face, I can’t stay still and wanting to tease her a bit. Why am I like this when I’m with her? I’m not usually like this. I was just silent whenever I’m with someone yet I can’t stop talking when I’m with her. I have to admit that her flustered face made me more comfortable around her. It’s cute. The way she fought back with those glistening round eyes of her as she stared at me wearing an embarrassing expression. I can’t help but wanting to see it more often. It’s really cute and . . . beautiful. As she can’t win with me, she always brought out the thing she said back in the restaurant. As I hear those words, it made me down. Why am I like this? Why is she like that? It’s unfair yet I always surrender the moment she brings that up. When she started feeling down and kept on apologizing to me, my heart hurts. I ended up being guilty of my actions. Why am I acting like this? Am I that anxious losing a friend? Is that really the real reason? That day we also ate desserts, went on an ice rink and to a live concert. It was really a tiring day and I can’t even bring up what I should say. The moment she shared me those weird dreams of hers, my mind turned blank. I can’t think of anything that time but to keep on questioning her about that dream. She only thought of it a dream but I know that it’s related to her lost memories. The moment I acted like that, it was too late when I started to realize. Even though she wants to hide it, I can feel how anxious she was. She tried maintaining a normal conversation yet I can see how uncomfortable she was the whole time. And because of my weird actions, she started becoming wary of me after that. Even when we were at the ice rink and the live concert, I can still see it on how she acted when I’m around. The moment I grabbed her hand when she fall, it was shaking so badly. How can I tell her the truth now? No matter how I deliver it, it will always be a fact that she’ll get hurt. A man stalked and approached her thinking that she’s the murderer who killed his friend. How complicated. Just like that, the awkwardness was still there when the concert ends. I offered to take her home yet she bluntly refused. I know the reason for her to refuse and I gladly understand it. The only thing I can do is accompany her till the taxi show up. The night was chilly and freezing. I slowly feel it as we sat on the bus stop in silence. She offered my coat back yet I refused. I mean I still wear a sweater and she wears a thin one piece dress. It’s very clear who needs the coat that time. I refused yet she still insisted as she stood up. She smiled at me as she entered the taxi. It was refreshing. It’s my first time seeing her smile like that. Despite being uncomfortable, she still enjoyed the night. That expression . . . it was warm and refreshing. I want to see it again. As the taxi slowly moved away, I snapped out. I think I’m in a very serious problem. The moment she smiles I felt warm. The cold never bothered me. But when she left, the chilliness around is back. I went back to my car and sighed heavily. I can’t show that kind of expression on my face to her. I think . . . I like her. The moment she showed me those warm smile, it instantly came to me. Ah, those smiles must be only shown to me. I can’t let any other guys see it. That’s why I should be careful. By the time she knows that I like her, she might distanced herself. I can’t let that to happen. I hate to admit but I guess . . . I became obsessed. I like her yet I still have a secret that I can’t let her know. It might be selfish of me but, I can’t afford to lose this chance anymore. Not again