I walked home hurriedly, I do not want to be late to cook lunch for my step father, as soon as I got home I dropped my backpack in my room and I went to take my pain reliever my head still hurts but only slightly.

I have a very good immune system, I healed without even going to the hospital or seeing a doctor, after I took my pain reliever.

I started to bring out pots and ingredients to make the portage yam and beans, after I was done cooking the food I went to check if my step father was around so I could eat out of the food I made.

After I made sure he was not home, I went back to the kitchen and I put some food in a plate and I ate it quickly. As soon as I finished eating I dished my stepfather's food and after that I washed the dishes and went to my room to take a long shower. 
After which I went to the kitchen and bandaged up my head,then I went straight to sleep.

"Wake up." Whack! He gave me a slap on my back.

"I said wake up! you murderer, murderers should never get to sleep, get up, who gave you the right to sleep? When I have not even slept yet, until I sleep,you must not sleep if not you will taste the special whip I got for you, you like it do you not?"

"Please do not beat me up anymore please I beg of you please, I am sorry I will never sleep before you anymore I am sorry." He gave me another slap to my face.

"Bitch you have not learnt anything have you? I love it whenever you plead with me, that is why I love to toy with you. You always give me the satisfaction I want, now continue to plead with me, I said plead with me and do not stop." I started to plead like a lunatic.

"Please do not do this to me, I beg of you, please I am so sorry please."

He took off his clothes and he roughly took of mine as I continued to plead with him but he did not listen to me and he did to me as he pleased as always I kept screaming none stop.

I should have been used to it by now, but it is always worse than the last every time,after he was done he took his clothes and left me there, there was something weird about this time, he did not use his sex toys on me.

I wondered why, but I am also very thankful that he did not use his toys on me, after that I eventually fell asleep even with all the pain I was feeling but at least I know the pain will have reside by morning I just cannot wait, I then fell asleep.

    I woke up early the next morning and I was right the pain has indeed reside am glad for that, I wobbled to the bath room as my lower region was very sour.

I did my business, I brushed and I also took my bath, after which I dressed up for the day, a leggings and a baggy shirt then I went to the kitchen to make breakfast for my step father,and after I washed the dishes. I made peanut butter and jelly sandwich for myself.

I took it to my room where I ate hurriedly, I was surprised he never caught me steal food to eat, after I was done I stood near the window and gazed outside enjoying the view and watching people pass by was surprisedly calmly.

I heard loud crashing and smashing, I then went to check what was happening.

    What I saw was quite disturbing, my father was destroying the kitchen smashing and breaking things, I then gasped and he turned around, why did I gasp? why did I even come to check what was happening? Curiosity kills the cat.

"You! Where are my bottles of vodka? You better tell me right now, I know you do not drink so tell me where they are,has... has someone been coming into my house? Tell me right now."

"No one came in here you drank them all, do not dare lie to me."

"Have I ever lied to you? you made sure that I never know how to lie to you, whenever I lied to you, you would torture me, I learnt my lesson never to lie to you."
He thought about it for a while and then agreed with me. He took out money from his pocket and told me to go buy him three bottles of vodka.

I took the money from him before he got further agitated, he then left but not before roughly bumping his shoulder with mine.

I was just glad things did not get out of control if no he would have had a reason to beat me up even more, I better go now before he comes back and he sees me standing here.

I then left through the front door and I went to a nearby shop to get the bottles of vodka, this is the first time he has ever asked me to go buy anything, he made sure that I do not ever have a reason to go out except school.

   When I got there and I asked for three bottle of vodka, I was surprised he gave me before asking if I was eighteen and above but I did not dare question it,he gave me the bottles of vodka in a box and I gave him the money.

I did not know how much and I was too scared to ask so I just gave him the money given to me and I waited if he would give me the remaining money if the money I gave him was excess but he asked me why I was waiting that I did not give him over the original amount of the vodka and I just quietly left that place without looking back.

I walked back home, as I was reaching my house I saw a car parked in the driveway of the house next to my house, I decided to mind my own business and I kept walking towards my house, as I reached my house, a woman came out of the house next to mine and politely greeted me.

"I am Mrs Amira Issah my husband and I just moved into this house that is apparently next to yours."

"I guess I just got myself a new neighbour," I told her with a sweet smile "my name is Axymah Adam, I live here with my step father."

"I would have loved to stay here and chat with you so we would have a good neighboring relationship but I have a lot of work, so till next time, said my new neighbour, okay bye."

"Have a nice day." She told me.

"You too." I replied her.
She then left and went back to her house, I entered my home not knowing what was awaiting me inside. 
   I went inside and I met my step father sitting on the chair in the living, I walked further inside and I kept the box of vodka on the coffee table.

"Who was that you were talking to outside? And why were you speaking to her? I forbade you from talking to anyone and you went and spoke to that woman outside and you were even smiling. Who on earth do you think you are? Did I give you the permission to smile? Answer me, why are you quiet? Who was she?"

"She is our new neighbour."

"What was she saying? What did she ask you?"

"She was saying that her and her husband just moved in and that we are neighbours now she lives next door and she introduced herself to me but she did not ask me anything."

"Henceforth you will not speak or  smile to anyone except if I permit or ask you to do so,do you get that?"

"Yes I do, I am very sorry it will never happen again."

"It better not happen again, if not,I will make you taste your mothers grave,did I make myself clear? Answer me you bitch! Did I make myself clear?"

"Yes."

"Now get out of my face, go to your room."

"Okay."
I went into my bedroom and I broke into tears I can not believe this, my life just got worse every second of the day, I am not even allowed to smile without being asked to or permitted to by my step father.

I can not sleep before my step father does, if not he will beat me again and worst this time, what sort of life is this, I am just sixteen why did my mom leave me,I cried harder against my bed.

After my crying died down it turned into hiccups, I carried my bed up and brought out the small box where I keep my parents pictures, I took one out, that one was of myself, my mom and my dad.

I used to have a very happy family, just me, my mom and my dad, we all loved each other so much, we lived a very happy life, as a family, as one.
My parents pampered and spoilt me, I once had parents that loved and cherished me, I meant the whole world to them.

They made me feel so special, like a princess, but now I am nothing but a worthless piece of life, a girl that was once treated like a princess and was once cared for like an egg was now, being treated like garbage.
A slave, and a tool for satisfaction for my reckless, disgusting, distorted step father, sometimes I just feel like killing him.
I could just easily buy poison and add to his food but that will just confirm one theory *I killed my own mother*

It might not have been intentionally but that does not matter, all that matter is that she is dead and it was all because of me.
I cried harder has my thoughts bite me hard, I took out another picture and it was a picture of me and my mother at home but there was someone else in that picture.

Elizabeth Smith! She was my childhood friend, she used to come to my house a lot of time, I looked at the picture of her and I saw a beautiful light skinned young girl,tall in height,has a thin lip with a bit long curled hair and black eyes and in those eyes I saw life and her eyes twinkled with joy, she had a smudge on her face.

As I remembered that day i realised it was ice cream then I looked at the second girl in the picture which was me and I saw an average height girl with short black hair and chocolate skin with pink lips and black eyes filled with life  and a smile that could light up a grumpy man's day.

But now her eyes her no longer filled with life,she dreaded her life and way of living, she is not allowed to smile, only if permitted by her step father, my thoughts took me back to that day.

*flashback*
 "You girls should stop that do not run, I have told you girls to never run around and chase each other in the house, why do you not want to listen to me?" My mom asked.

"Of course they will not listen to you, they are kids until they get hurt  before they will learn."

"What are you saying dear? that I should leave them so they can fall and probably get seriously injured, is that what you are saying?"

"Do not look at it like that my dear wife."

"If they fall and get injured they will never repeat that action,which means they might want to listen to your warnings next time, but go after them so that they do not get into trouble after all you are itching to go after them so you can keep an eye on them."

"Can you blame me?"

"No of course not,I saw them run outside, go,hurry."

"Okay."

She went after us and she saw Elizabeth bleeding on her elbow and we were both covered in sand.

"Oh my God, what happened?"

"Elizabeth fell while we were chasing each other."

"Did I not tell you to stop running?!"

"We were just playing mom."

"Just playing do not play such play again okay? I never want to see you run around carelessly okay?"

"Yes mom I am sorry."

"It is okay, come let us go inside."

When we got in, mom showed dad Elizabeth bleeding elbow.

"How did this happen?"

"They were running around, this was what I was telling you about but you did not take me seriously."

"Are you alright Elizabeth." My dad asked her.

"Yes I am fine but my elbow hurts."

"Do not worry there is a first aid kit in the kitchen, I will apply spirit to your elbow and a cotton wool then I will plaster it with a bandage do not worry it will only sting a little then your elbow will heal okay?"

"Okay."
My mom applied the spirit to Elizabeth's elbow.

"Ouch"

"Sorry I am almost done." My mom said.

"I am sorry Elizabeth." I told her

"It is okay we were both playing."

"There I am done, it will feel better soon okay?"

"Okay."

"Who wants a piggyback ride?"

"Me!" Elizabeth and I said in unison,my dad always know how to lighten the mood.

My dad gave me one first then he gave Elizabeth,after that my dad tickled the both of us till we started to cry and my mom just watched us with a smile before she joined in on the fun, afterwards the mood was lightened.

My mom gave us ice cream and my dad took a picture of the three of us he could not be in the picture because he was the one that took the picture of us.
*end of flashback*

   I wiped my eyes and kept the pictures back into the box then u carried the bed up and put the box back under it then I just sat there with swollen eyes.

I then remembered the kitchen I have not cleaned it up if my step father goes in there and sees that it is a mess,I will end up just like the kitchen.

I then stood up from where I sat on the floor to go clean the mess my step father made  the kitchen.

I took a broom and swept the place clean making sure I got all of the broken cups and plates,after I was done I took my pain reliever and I started on making lunch.

I made fried yam and egg sauce,after I was done I hurriedly dished some for my self to eat, I was on alert and i tried to eat as quickly as I could because I know my step father is home he could come downstairs any time.

I cannot afford to be caught, after I was done I had an hiccup because I ate too fast,I grabbed a cup of water and drank it all.
I cleared where I ate and washed all the dishes after which I went back to my room to do my homework after all I have nothing more doing.