SCARS

The loud noise filled the place. But, the noise isn't annoying, but, gladdening.

The kids are having fun, running and playing with each other. And, I can see on their eyes how happy they are. At least, for a moment in their lives, they forgot the tragedies that happened to them and laugh as if they're all heavenly happy since before.

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They're the kids who were abandoned by their own parents and families, some are orphan and the others suffered and came from abusive guardians.

Even they had hellacious past they still managed to laugh and be happy. Is it because they're still youngling? I hope, when they grow up, their past won't bother them and they will choose to live gracefully in the present.

No one deserves to be imprisoned by their past.

They're yelling and having real fun and their laughs makes my heart flutter. I am really happy for them, I want to see happiness on children faces. Kids should be having fun and playing. They deserve to be happy at all cost.

As I was looking at the kids, I suddenly remembered something happened the last time I went here.

Out of nowhere, the shout and cries of the little girl filled my ears while my mind pictures her. I abruptly remembered the scene. Her awful face shouts the sorrows of her cries.

I blew out a deep breath and started to scan the whole place but I didn't get to see the little girl. Where is she now? Did she finally recover? The cuts and blood on her wrist still lingers on my memory.

Flashing back of what happened last time took all the calm and peacefulness on my heart. Where's that kid?

I was about to call Kezi when a kid hiding meters away from my place caught my attention. I can't see her properly because she's hiding on the back of someone's car. She's on the parking lot, alone way from me, from the kids. She's away from anybody.

Thinking that she might do something bad that would harm her makes me feel real time nervous. I ran towards her and when I am just about meters away from her, she hid even more so I won't see her, too late, baby.

I take one step heading on the place where she's hiding but every steps that I take towards her, she also take a step backwards.

"Hi-" someone cut me and because of that the kid had the chance to run away from me.

"Ma'am is there something wrong?" Kezi asked and she is also looking on the kid who's running away from us.

I wanted to ask Kezi about the kid who cut her wrists so badly. But, I choose to shut my mouth and shook my head.

"Why? Do you need something?" I asked and before she answer my question she gave me a sweet smile.

"Let's have our brunch, Ma'am Syrah. The kids are also having their brunch now." she said. I looked back at where the kid who ran away earlier.

"How about the kid who ran away?" I asked again and Kezi just look at the place where the kid was heading to.

"I'll tell one of our workers to search for Liana." so, Liana is her name. What a good name for an angel like her.

I nodded and smiled at her. She did the same thing before we walk towards where the folks are.

This day is fantastic and memorable for these kids. They've been playing since earlier with the Clowns, other workers and volunteers.

"Thank you so much for making this day memorable for the kids, Ma'am." It was Mari who talked. She's standing right beside her sister.

"Don't mention it. I am glad to see their happy faces even just for a day like this. And also, thank you to all of you for helping." They answered me with a decent smile.

After minutes of giving the kids my attention, my phone suddenly rang and Chris's photo appeared. He's calling so I answered it immediately.

"Why?" I answered.

"I forgot to tell you that you have an appointment with Dr. Roneil. It's a general check-up." Chris said. I forgot it also! I have to go on a general check-up because of the accident that happened to me.

"Are you going with me?" I asked him.

"Yeah, I'm actually on my way on you. Wait for me there, I'm hanging up now." I nodded as if he can see me.

"Alright." the only word that I've uttered.

It's been three hours now since we got here and the results came just by now.

Chris and I are sitting on the visitor's chair while Dr. Roniel is on his chair and the nurse is standing behind him.

"If we will count the day after the car accident it just happened for almost a year or more than a year now, right?" Dr. Roneil stopped and Chris and I both nodded.

"Look at this." he sighed before showing us my whole x-tray. "This is an in fracture of your bones." I nodded before interrupting.

"That's what I got from the car accident, right?" but instead of answering me right away, he sighed again.

Making Chris frowned. "Why? What was that?"

"This is the fracture, that you got was not from the accident happened a year ago." he stopped and pointed my bones. "I think you got this a long time ago. Maybe, two to three years ago? Perhaps five years?" he said.

"I don't get it. Why would I have that? I can't remember anything from my past. Do you think I got on an accident before the accident happened a year ago?" I looked at Chris after I said those but he's looking seriously on my x-tray and other results.

"Yes." Dr. Roneil bluntly answered. "You got on an accident before the car accident happen a year ago." my heartbeats suddenly go crazy. What's the meaning of this?

"What do we need to do?" it's Chris asking emotionless.

"For now we'll make another schedule to have another general check-up. Most probably, we'll do that check-up on the same day of your brain and memory check-up too." I didn't answer anything. I was too preoccupied by what I've just heard.

I got on a car accident a year ago and now, I just knew that I've been on an accident before that car accident. Is that how mad the world at me so cruel.

"Are you fine, Syrah?" I turned my gaze on Chris who's now driving.

I nodded before answering. "Yes, I'm fine."

After a long drive because of traffic we just got home by now. I went straightly on our mansion's rooftop.

Now, I'm facing the dark sky with lots of stars and a crescent moon. The cold breezy air was hugging me but an Americano coat with a familiar scent, Calvin Klein's scent was putted on my shoulder.

I looked at the man who put the coat on me. "Hi." I said and he just gave me a small smile and turned his gaze on the sky too. That's why I did the same thing.

"Are you sure you're fine? You don't seem not okay but you don't look stress also." he'd really got me.

"I think I really had a dark past looks like the world is really cruel on me." I said and look on my wrists and the cuts showed up.

Chris looked on my wrists also. He then held my both wrists and massaged it slowly.

"It is beautiful scars," I didn't expect that he would say that. I looked at him with a questioning look. Why would he think that these are beautiful scars?

"Syrah, Listen here. I may not really know everything about you because I marry you months after we've met. But, always remember that no matter how hard and dark you past. I'll always be standing by your side."

My eyes got blurry and tears rolled down my face. My heart starts to beat erratically because of what he said. I'm a little bit fine now. I'm fine now, because of you, Chris.