Lily pov//

I was out of mind, definitely out of mind when I thought about making peace with him, become friends again for Liliana's sake. But no, he has gone mad, how dare he? How dare he kissed me? what really he think of himself? Did he really think if he just kisses me then everything will be sorted out? I will fall myself on him, into his arms again? I thought if I talk to him peacefully then he will definitely listen to me and we would become on good terms and then there will no problem in raising our daughter. But he, that damn crazy man dare to claim me by kissing me. I shouldn't have met him alone, I should have talked with him in the morning while at least his mom would have been there, then the thing didn't have to happen. And me, it's really my fault, I am the worst. It was all me who fell in love with him, it's me who beg for one chance, it's me who got hurt, it's me who didn't protest while he was kissing me, it's my body who react lustfully around him, it's me who's body was always ready for his touch as if its belong to him. I mean don't I have any shame? am I that desperate?

After all those words he threw at me, the pain he gave me wasn't it enough? enough to give a lesson to my body, to my brain, to my heart? Did I want to hit myself to punish me, forgive myself so easily to him, to kiss him back, to still have feelings for him? Why I am sticking to that person why am I not seeing jake who was always there, there to care, there to make all my pain away, there to stop anything or anyone who or which can hurt me, who never let his ego, his money come between us, who always respect me, my decision, who always devour my body where everyone taunts me to have a curvy body. I want to love him, oh god I want to love him, I want to forget that man who pushes me from the cliff while he should have been saved me from falling. I want to love that man who saved me. He is the king who knows how to treat his queen in every aspect.

I am now standing on the balcony. It's 5 am and I am still awake. I couldn't sleep for the whole night after last night's incident. Jake is not here because he had to go for some important business deal. He didn't want to go but I forced him and he knew he can't say no to me. And that time I didn't know this is going to happen because when jake left for his business meeting in San Diego then I went to Liliana's house and at night this thing happened. I am controlling myself to burst out anytime. I don't want to cry, don't want to be hurt. I don't want to touch my lips because it reminds me of his lips which were on my lips some hours ago, how his lips were eating, sucking, nibbling my lips hungrily, and I was doing the same. I feeling like I am cheating with jake. Though we are not in a relationship which is my fault but still he doesn't deserve this. I don't deserve him. Why...just why my life became this much complicated?was this all my fault?was it my fault to fall for my ex-best friend? I think it was? I think I shouldn't have come here then I wouldn't have felt like this again.

I don't know what I was thinking while kissing him back...(sigh) I don't know. I think I became like an old lily who used to crave her Chris touch. But no, I am not that lily anymore. I have to remind myself that I am lily, the famous YouTuber, dancer, inspiration to all of her fans, she has someone who adores her, devour her everything. She doesn't need anyone or anything else.

Right now I don't know I want to talk with jake. I am missing him. If he was here with me right now he would have been tried to make my mood better, by making jokes, tickling me, kissing my weak spots, making love to me. He knows what he is doing. He knows that I am not into commitment but he never complains. I feel so bad, sometimes I really behave like a bitch just to make him go away from me. But he being him, whatever I make him feel bad but he acts like a shameless businessman who knows how to hold his loved ones or things tightly to his life. And I am one of them, maybe the special one. Sometimes whenever he fell asleep on my chest or beside me, I just stare at his face, then caress it. How do I get so that lucky to have this man, also without any commitment?

I was so engrossed with my thought that I didn't realize someone decided to slide his arms in my waist. He put his face in the crook of my neck and starts to give me wet kisses which made me moan."Hey my queen, what are you doing here at this time?" "hmm I don't know, I couldn't sleep. That's why I thought to enjoy some time here." "Really? Or you couldn't sleep without me?" Then he nuzzles more into my neck and bit me a little. I turn around to see him and I saw a man who can make any woman's day beautiful and perfect.

I put my arms around his neck and peck his lips."I am not that desperate Kingston. Did you forget? I am lily, who is better on her own, so stop dreaming" "first of all don't insult me with this little peck you know this little peck does not satisfy so I want more " with that, he smashed his lips with mine and let his tongue play with into my mouth. After he feels that he is satisfied then he steps back and left me in a daze. "now that's we call a welcome kiss. And if we talk about my dreaming then no, I do not dream, I make it happen. I know you are lily the fiesty, I also know that many charmers can die for you but right here, right now I am the lucky one and I don't know for how long but I will make sure it will always be me to satisfy you to love you, to see you all day and night long, to make you smile. It's been me and always be me, so let me enjoy the moment my queen." Then he kissed my forehead, his confessions wanted me to cry but I choose not to. I just hide in his chest. I hugged him tightly, I wanted to get lost in him. I wanted to forget last night's incident, the feeling I felt after so many years. Call me bitch, call me selfish, but I know I have to move on, I have to stay away from that man. I wanted to tell jake that what happened but I am scared about the outcome. If jake came to know about that kiss then he will not do to me anything but he will definitely kill him or will do something to destroy him. And I don't want that, not because I still care about him but I also don't want that because of me someone else's life gets ruined and now he is not alone, our Liliana is also involved in his life. So if something bad happens to him then it will badly affect her and all her life she will always blame me which I don't want.

"Hey, baby, what happened?" I still didn't come out from his chest, I was not ready to confront him and say him what bothering me. He will know, he will definitely know something is wrong with me, so I realize I should do what I need right now, which made me feel peace, made me be myself again and which is being with him "make love to me jake" "huh? baby, right now you need sleep otherwise it will harm your health" I didn't listen to him, so I make my move and kissed him hungrily which caught him off guard. I begin to put off his coat, then start to unbutton his shirt while kissing. He held me by my hips and left no space between us. I became so messy that I didn't care if his shirt rip or what "hey my lioness calm down, I didn't know my absence will make you this much hungry" I threw his shirt off and took him to the bed. I push him to the bed and I knew he realized something is wrong with me but he also didn't ask me anything. That's another reason I like him. He kissed me hard, he explores my mouth like a hungry lion. His kiss didn't give me that spark, that shiver which I felt with Chris.

But why? jake is so a good person, he is too perfect for me but what's wrong with me? I realize he was giving his wet kisses all over my body. I wanted to fade Chris kiss away, I wanted to belong to Jake. I took his face in front me and smile at him, then whisper "make love to me jake, I need you, I want you to show me how much you want me, how this queen only belongs to king Jacob and no one else. Make me scream for you all night, make me fall for you so much that I lost myself in you, I want you to envelope me within you so that no one can snatch me from you, I want you to show me that only you can make all pain go away. Please " "sssh baby, queen don't plead, they only order. Your wish my command love, I will baby, I will make sure to soothe your all pain just trust me" I nod and he begins to explore my body, slowly and making sure to love my every corner.

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I woke up late because we made love five times which left my body sore. I wanted to get up because it's been already late but I think I was done for. Sometimes asking him to love me becomes my punishment. He becomes something else in the bed but I don't mind. I am now looking at the person who is sleeping so peacefully. I caress his cheek which made him wiggle. After thinking so much about last night I know I have to do something, something which is important, something will change both of our life. I have to do this for his sake, for my sake. I know some will disappoint but I think it's for the best. I know when to do this and how to do this and it will be perfect for that moment. I know it will bring us something better and for that, I need to call "v" to help me, I have to ask her to come here so that I can execute my plan.

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Everyone in the shooting spot was noticing that Christopher was looking very happy. He was busy making jokes, he was grinning. He makes sure to do his shoot in one take. He was actually happy and why shouldn't he? He finally kissed her, finally get to know what is in her mind. Even he couldn't believe that how could he grab all his courage to do that stunt. He still feeling her plumpy lips, how his tongue danced in her mouth, savoring her sweet taste. He even remembers how she responds, he couldn't believe that his lily still feels the same for him.

He knew that she is still angry with him, which she should be but he also knew that there is somewhere in the corner in her heart there is something, something is still there, there to made some beautiful future out of it, where he, his flower and their baby will live their best, he was thinking to go far from here, the place she loves. He still remembers how she wanted to visit Italy. She wanted to learn their language, eat their yummy pizza, her grandparents met there, she really loves their love story, along with her parents. How she wanted to start a family over there, or Korea, South Korea, because of the love for K-pop. Haha, he started to laugh at his thought. It's high time to work on his game to win her over. He knew his competitor is strong, but when they both love each other so the third person had no chance to meddle.

At first, he should apologize to her, to behave like a dick at that time, he had to tell her everything, tell her no beg her to give him the chance to show her how much he loves her, how much he suffered, what happened in these 5 years. He can't let that happen again, he knew that if he lost her again then no one, no one can save him again. He doesn't want to go that path again. He doesn't want to think about negative things again. This time Liliana will help him to reunite her mom and dad. He knew Lily can't say no to their baby. He wanted to tell everyone, that his flower didn't stop loving him, his wait for 5 years didn't go waste. He wanted to shout, scream by happiness, so he decided to post on Instagram...

On the way to win the biggest star of my life.Wish me luck❤❤❤❤

With that he posts...he wanted to finish this shoot and ran to his home, the most peaceful place where his two flowers are there, where the sound of their laughter would feel like soothing songs. Where his love would be cooking for their baby and their bundle of joy would be dancing to BTS songs. He has to talk with her, just give him some time to solve everything, his explanation. Just for one time...

When he went home he found out Liliana had already slept and there was no sign of his flower. But she would be always here this time and even he reached here before his usual time. He saw his mom was sitting watching tv on the couch."Oh Chris, thank god you are here, Liliana was asking for you before sleeping, she was already upset because lily didn't come today, she has some things to do and it was related to work, so she told me to inform you." he thought she was definitely avoiding him, but he just can't sit and wait for her to show her face, he wanted to run after her home but he knew that man would be there and he cant talk with her peacefully, so he has to talk while that man would not be there with her. He need to talk to her alone. "oh, ok I will talk to her tomorrow" "actually, she would not be here for two days, she has to work on her videos, and there will conference she has to attend, so she said that she will meet Liliana two days later"

The first thought that comes to his mind is that she might need some time to think, to absorb whatever happened between them last night. If she needs time, then he is ready to give her two days, but after two days they will have their talk again and he will make sure of that, they have to be alone to fade their misunderstanding.

Two days later//

It was already morning. He and his daughter were waiting for their sweet lily. It's been 2 hours but she still hasn't come. He called her many times but it was unreachable. Their daughter didn't have her breakfast yet, even he was waiting for her but she was nowhere to be seen. She was never that much irresponsible towards Liliana, he knew she can hurt him to his face but she will never do such a thing.

These two days were hard enough to convince his baby."Momma came?" "Papa, you said momma will come two days later when two days will over?" "Papa, call mama." "no, I don't like this food, momma make better food, where is momma, you call her?" Every time the doorbell rang, she would have run towards the door, to see if her momma came or not, but she was not there and it would make her smile face into teary one. I don't like her to cry, she looks like an angel whenever she smiles, just like her mother, my flower.

I was trying to feed her but she was so persistent, just like her momma. But she has to eat "baby if you don't eat, then momma will not like it, don't you want your momma to come back..." "papa if I eat then momma will come, really?" "really my baby, my princess, she will come. Momma has so much work, she works hard like papa. She is so strong, don't you want to strong like momma?" She nodded with her big eyes "then say Aaah" she opened her mouth and he feeds her" "that's like my strong baby, if you eat just like that then momma will come for sure and she promised that she will come" Now he was hoping that she should come today otherwise that will break their baby's, little heart.

After feeding her he was getting ready for the shoot, suddenly he felt some vibration in his pocket. When he saw there was an invitation to the party. He was confused at first from whom it might be. Then another message came, a smile escaped from his mouth, it was from her, his lily messaged him.

"That invitation was from me. You have to come to the "Saint" club, there will be a party. There will be some celebration and for that, I have invited some important people along with you. I want you to be there at 7 pm.

And Christopher, I will be happy if you come."

"Party? But about what?" but it wasn't the main issue. She said that she only invited some important people, she still considers him an important part of her life. He personally invited her and he will go there. He will definitely go there to celebrate with her. She wants him to be a part of her celebration and this will be the first step of a new beginning.