flashback 5 years ago...

"oh hey chris..finally i get to meet you...i am sorry for my ignorance tow ards you before...i actually didnt knew that your father is nathanial wilson...i mean the nathanial wilson,the business tycoon.Can you imagine? you should have told me before...then that we would have make you our main model before...anyway,we still have time to sign a contract with you.Here..is your contract..3 years contract,lavish payment and our agency will work hard to make you shine in the hollywood."

i couldnt believe in my ears that mr jason marvel was casting me in his agency,where i was dying to join,this man and his agency is the dream of many new beginners and i was one of them.I even lost my counts that how many times i roam around,give interview and asked many people to introduce to him.His agency was not only famous because of nothing.So many renowned actor,actress,singer,model are part of this agency.And i couldnt believe it after so many months finally i was going to achieve my reward.Its been months after my lily left me and i have achieve any good news.

"thank you...thank you so much..mr jason...i.mean sir...you have no idea how many times i tried so that you can appreciate my work.You have no idea how happy you made me."

"oh come on chris...you are talented and when mr nathanial wilson asked me personally and invested big amount of money on our agency then why i shouldnt give you the chance to shine and dont worry i will help you to reach the top of modeling career.And you would be glad to know that your beautiful fiance sophie moore would be working with us.Just wait and watch you both will become the star model couple very soon and it will.also help you to.meet many directors.You are in my hand now.."

"oh" i should have known that mr wilson did his work very well.I scoffed by listening to jason.My dear father proving that how loving father he is! for others it seems how is he supporting my career but no...he is doing this because he wants to show people that wilson can do his best in any field and actually he is investing in film and media industry...he is doing business...and he is using me as his logo.

From the day i signed contract with him ,he is literally controlling everything,even i had to ask him permission when to breathe.He always make sure i do whatever he wants,when i should smile,with whom and which agency i should work with.He even do everything to highlighten my so called fiancee.There are so many times i had to smile and kissed her on the cheek.Every time,literally every red carpet,every show,even his business party i had to present there with her and she acts like nothing has happened.She even start to call him 'dad' i mean seriously,she had no remorse that her own father disowned her and didnt had any talk with her since then.

She do everything whatever makes her popular.My father have every record about wherever i go,if i go without her or not,or i meet another girl,or making any plot against my father.Huh,what a joke!

Like jason ,there are so many popular people and agency who wants me cast me as soon as possible.And it's happening from the moment my father announced that i am his son,from that moment many people is trying to get me in their shows,their ramp.not only me...my so called fiancee had to be there wherever i go.Why dont she understand i dont want to be near her,i dont want her, i dont need her.It's fucking suffocate me whenever she tries to hold my hand or try to kiss me.

And if i talk about my work,then i became so busy with all these shows and fake people ,i.just want to hide from all of these.Ya i wanted these ,all of these but from my hard work not from anyone's recommendation.I was doing good,i was happy,i was okay.But for nathanial wilson okay is not enough,you have to be perfect,you have to prove that you are the heir of wilson and the wilson always have to be perfect.

When i got the call from marvel agency,i became so happy.I was over the moon,i thought someone will be atleast appreciate my work, not because of mr. wilson.But no,i was wrong,so so wrong.It's money,all about money and business.You have connection then you can do and get whatever you want.I used to heard that at my rookie days when my collegue used to say that.At that time no one used to know me but now,now its not easy.

I didnt want that,i wanted to be hard worker,i wanted to do something by my own.My flower used to say that,"my chris can achieve anything by his hard work because he is an honest person.And never use any of your connection ,then it will be injustice to those people who comes from scratch.Dont take away their opportunity,if you have talent then prove yourself,show the world that you dont need your surname to reach the success."

ohhh,lily...My lily...how she always see the best of me.Oh my flower..Thats why i always try to avoid those people whom my father buy them with his money.But no one can overtake mr nathanial wilson.

I saw jason was looking at me,with anticipation,for an answer.So i answered him which i felt right at this moment...

"sorry jason...but i think i need some time to think...its my luck that you have called me personally but working for such a big and famous company it came as a shock for me and i didnt knew you were going to ask me to sign right away...so..i need some time to prepare myself...please jason dont mind...i know its an big opportunity and anyone will grab it within a second and if you asked me for 1 or 3 shows then i would have agree within a minute but you are asking me for 3 years so can you let me think for some time?" i saw him to think for some time, i was just hoping that he would get angry and ask me to leave because after he was some big shot and he must be thinking how dare of me that i was asking him time.Actually it was my intention because i dont want to live on my father's charity ...i couldnt say no to him directly because of contract..so i thought let jason do the work..

"ok..." "wh...a..t?" " i said ok..i mean you are right it's 3 years contract after all so just think about properly but dont take too much time because you know how much competitive this world has become and time is money.And dont forget your father's name is also involved in here so just think about him also before making any decision." "ya...i will..ok i will take my leave...see you later jason"

With that i left his office and hope into my car.I start my and kept punching the steering wheel many times.I dont understand why i ...why...why.. why...the hell i signed that contract?i did that mistake...i came in this field...why i let her go away from me...why i let that stupid sister of her to come near me...why i couldnt say i love her too...why didnt i kissed her tears...why... a tear escaped through my eye.When i stopped the car i realize i was infront of her house,unconsciously.My heart ,my body,my mind knows where it will feel peace.

I came out from my car,as usual,as everyday since she left her house.My feet automatically found its way to her door.Every single day since she left...every fucking single day i come here...just for a hope...hope to see her again..hope to heard her voice again...hope to feel her in his arms again..hope to hear that everything was just a bad dream...nothing has changed...nothing has happened...but even my mind knew that everything was real...but what about my heart..I wanted to run up to her and kneel down and beg her to run with me..somewhere where will be only love...nothing will be matter...just go with him...anywhere..wherever she want...just once...

I waited there for 3 hours...i wanted to knock the door...ask her father if he knew something about her...if he will tell me about her whereabouts if he asked him?the answer is "NO" a big fat no...because he is doing this for 6 months...but her dad..who use welcome me with his two big warm arms...who even loved me more than my own damn father now whenever he look at me he shows as if he dont know me,as if i am a murderer..yes i am a murderer of his daughter's heart,her smile,her cheerful nature,her trust,her belief,her bubbly nature,her innocent personality...its her father who thought after him her chris will always be there to protect her,to adore her,to care her,to love her...but when i got the chance to give all to her...i bloody fool myself throw that opportunity...i didnt even realize what kind of bullshit he was talking about that fateful night..should i blame those alchohol or should blame those thoughts which were not even in my mind at all...i never thought anything bad about her,never her body,her introvert nature,her insecurity about that things which she didnt had...these things never bothered me...and why should i...she was important to me...the way she was...i dont know why i uttered those bullshit...what...if?

What if..i would have realized my feelings for her ,like she realized then everything would have been sorted out...she would have been here to embrace me ...to protect me from all these chaos...all this suffocation...to soothe me...to pat my back...to kiss my neck...to tell me..to tell me i am here with you...i am here to soothe your all pain...nothing can suffocate you...

But the truth,the bitter truth is she is not here...here to do all that...a sob escape from my mouth...i felt some pain in my heart...unbearable pain...i keep hiting my heart so that it can reduce but no...it needed its cure...the smell which can calm him...the smell which only can give one person...only one beautiful flower of my life and always will be...and that is his lily...my lily...

Its been 6 hours...and he was sitting in front of her house ...as always...dont know why..even knowing that neither her dad will tell him anything ,nor he can ask anything...but this place give him peace...so he was sitting here.

He was so engrossed by watching her house that he didnt even realize his phone was vibrating non stop.When he realize he then take out from his pocket and saw 5 missed calls from his so called fiancee and 15 missed calls from his dearest father and he knew why his father might be calling him!So he decided to call his father back...

"How dare you to asked jason some bloody time ...have you lost your mind ?you fool do you have any idea how much money i have invested on both of you...like a good girl she accepted it and my own son asked some of his precious time...for what?to think! huh! you need time to think,for what and for why...who asked you to use your little brain...listen you brat...only i have the right to think what is right and what is wrong for your life and future...not anyone else..not even you...do.you.get.that?and you only have the right to act according to my plan..not only you..sophie also.Dont you dare to forget that you both have signed the contract with me..so dont try to mess with me otherwise you dont want to know the consequences...because no one can mess with wilson"

Those words made him more angry and increased his pain than before
So spat whatever thoughts come to gis mind "do whatever you want..i will not dance like a puppet anymore...i will not act anymore...i will not fake.smile anymore...do whatever you want...even i want to see what kind of bad things you can do with your own son father and you know what...go to hell with your contract..."

"You will regret that ...chris you have no idea with whom you are messing with!you have no idea how dirty a business can be and if you think just because you are my son i will spare then you are wrong...you are very very wrong (chuckle) i think i have to show you little demo when you try to overstep the business king.You want to play..then lets play"

with that he cut the phone annoingly...he just couldnt tolerate that bullshit anymore...he decided to stay here for more time ,then he will go to his dorm.

He reached at his dorm before night because after 8 and if the gate of dorm get closed then he have to spend his night on some hotel which he dont want because he dont want be alone...not tonight..at least in dorm he has his friend alex,who always encourage him to do hard work,to study hard...who also encourage him not to give up on your love...on his lily.

"hey chris,where were you man? you even missed your today's class...was there a lot of work ,did anybody called you?" "nah...i was busy with my bad luck and yea some hotshot producer called me...jason marvel...the same producer of your favourite movie and also the owner of the company." "no.way...are you serious..oh my goodness congrats man..i knew it...i kmew it..someone will call you to sign. contract...he was the same man to.whom you were trying to meet so many times and now he called you
..can you believe it...see someone has finally praised your work..now your life will be changed"

"hold your horses man...i didnt signed that contract" "what! but why?chris what happened?" then he told him everything ,what his father did and all.

"i am sorry man and i think you did it right...you shouldnt do anything against your heart...you will definity get your success one day and which will.be only by your hardwork not by some recommendation.Just have faith...and you have me...dont worry...and i already took notes so you can check it" he hugged alex.After lily it was only alex who ever understood him,he is like a brother to him "thanks man" "oh come on what's are friends for? but one thing is bugging me...i am having bad feeling that your dad will not stay quite at all.So just try to stay safe." "i will and what he will even do?he have done damage enough "

"anyway you stay here i am going to library...i have to study...you know our exams are near..so i have to collect some books so that i can make notea for both of us...i know how much you are struggling " "man..now will you make me cry or what..dont be so kind man...my poor heart cant digest so much emotions" "oh stop it...you sleep ...and dont forget to keep the lights off" "now go...shoo"

Even he dont know when he dozed off...he was so tired he was unaware of his surroundings,What was actually happening!after some time he heard some noise...he was about to open his eyes but there was so much light...but he remembered he definitely turn the light off,so who turn it on?it might be alex! "alex just turn off the light man...listen i am so tired after long day..so let me sleep" "Mr. christopher wilson i think you should wake up because we need to talk" he got confused ,when he opened his eyes he saw their warden and principal was already there and some of hostel workers searching something in his room...his room was now a mess.

"what happened mam and sir...what are yoj doing in our room in this late?and why these people are searching and what arw they. even searching?"he was looking for alex but he was not there but there are other students are already infront of tbeir room to.watch some drama "listen mr christopher wilson..we thought you are bright student...who are working hard while studying...your father have reputation...you seems a decentand good student to us and thats what we let you study in these college and stay in the dorm but we never expected thia from you...i mean how could a student like you fell such type of bad things?"now he was totally confused what was happening?what he have even done? "mam...idont...know..what.." "mam we have found it...we have found the illegal drugs"

His eyes got widen with shock "The what?"