The next morning Valerie decided to visit lily's house. She was concerned about the email she saw this morning. She was also the partner of lily's dance academy. She wanted to talk about if she wants to go to the conference or not. Though the conference was important for every YouTuber that was not her concern she was worried about lily's decision. If she had seen the email, how did she react, what is she doing right now?

When she reached lily's apartment Valerie knocked on her door but she didn't open it first. After some moment Valerie opened it with the spare key she has. She was searching for her but realize she was bathing. After some moments lily gets out from the shower, she saw Valerie was there which made her smile.

"Hey, when did you came?"

"Sorry I was in the shower, so I couldn't hear anything. Sit, I haven't my breakfast yet." "Great, I am hungry too, make something delicious" Lily rolled her eyes "wait for a little, let me prepare some".

While Valerie was talking with Lily, she realized something was off. "Lily are you fine?" "huh? (chuckle) why will I not be ok?" "Have you seen the email that we got from YouTube?" "Ya, so what?"

"So you noticed that the conference is in Los Angeles, in our hometown, are you going ?" "So what, Valerie I know we have to go there. The place where I have buried all my bloody emotions for good. It used to be that naive lily's hometown, not this confident, successful Lily who knows what she wants and doesn't need anyone to rely on one for every single little thing."

"Lily just stops this, why are you doing this to yourself? I am happy that you find yourself, your future, your success, but don't you think you are loosing yourself day by day. I am scared about your drastic change.

You are not my that friend anymore who used to be happy in every little thing, who used to be so strong whatever happens not like this emotionless lily. Where did you hide that innocent lily who used to love everyone, who knew how to be cheerful who knew not to use for her interest. Where is she?"

"Do you know what I felt when that man called me fat and ugly?"

She whispered the last sentence.

"Do you know how does it feel to hear from his fucking mouth, the person who used to say that 'no matter what happened you are and will be beautiful, like a flower, no one can replace your beauty, the inner beauty you have. You are my ray of sunshine who never let me feel down, never let me felt alone'. He was there, every time whenever I felt useless, who knew when I feel or what I feel in different situations before me, who were there when even my family didn't care about me. Even you were not there because of some circumstances. But he never missed the chance to be there for me, never"

Valerie was listening to her every word, it's been years she was seeing her friends express her feelings, about her and him.

"Do you know why I do not show my emotions because my every emotion is tightly related to that man. I am scared to show, to feel because if I feel anything those emotions will come to me like a cyclone and he will not be here to hold me. Only he knew every piece of me still he did that, you were not there when he used that when I confess my feelings, you have no idea what I felt, no one knew what I felt that night and that time even he didn't know for the first time in 14 years, he was not there to handle me because he was the who shook my world, destroy my little world by his words."

She chuckled after some moments "he called my love infatuation, an infatuation. No, it was not, I knew what I felt. But it wasn't his fault, yea Valerie it was not his fault at all. I was not hurt when he didn't accept my love, I didn't felt hurt that much when I begged to him for one chance, just one chance to show how my..."

Valerie saw her clench her bathrobe while she was looking outside the window where rain was pouring.

"It was his last sentence, he called me what people always told me, the things I was used to hearing from those outsiders who didn't even like my shadow. But it was he who threw those words at me. I still remembered how his reaction got changed when I confess my feelings to him. He steps back from me like I was a plague or I asked him to give his life. You know he became the person whom I didn't know. His expressions were like 'are you out of your mind?'

His words couldn't let me sleep for fucking one year. His words showed his opinion about me, his thoughts about me, how he thought my existence can ruin his image, his career, his hard work.

For the first time, I think so low of myself. I felt so helpless, I was angry at myself that how and when I became so useless and desperate. For the first time, I needed to find myself, to be confident, to be powerful, to become a queen but not by changing my figure or something.

She looked back at her friend and smile "so I changed my emotions, I left my emotions when I left him. And now look at me what I have become. You are scared that I have become like this but I am scared to become like that old fool lily who was happy the way she was.No one can approach you if you don't present yourself confidently, successful, make your name.

And when you become all of these, guess what! the sane people chase you just to see your one look, the same people start to devote you, you become someone's inspiration which I have become now.

Not only that, I have one of the most powerful and greek god businessmen, who can do anything for me without any complaint, who is always there to please me, who know my worth, my importance, who can't think to leave me whatever happens.

He knows that I can't give him what he wants, I know what he feels for me, how he wants me to be the queen of his everything. But I am lost and so is my heart. I have lost my heart don't know where. I tried and tried to search for its key but I failed to do so.

I want to give him the future he wants for us but no matter how hard I try but I am so fucking tired, my mind is telling me to forget everything, just move on but I am so much pissed of myself and that's why I closed those bloody emotions which make me helpless, useless. I have tried so many times to hurt Jake by my words so that he leaves me but he is damn persistent.

Whatever or whenever I do something to get rid of him, he just doesn't budge. That's why I like his company. I want to give my heart but I think the door of my heart will never open because it lost its key and it has given its everything to that man and there is nothing left so I can't do anything"

Valerie was now in tears, she was looking at her like she was seeing that old lily whom she used to know once, she knew Jacob is a great man but only Chris can find her hearts key, only he can make her feel alive, even lily knew too but she was not ready to accept and slowly losing herself into other things.

"You know Valerie, whenever I see him in social media or in any video or movie I feel like my confidence level boost up, I become more determined. If you are thinking he still affects me then you are wrong. His existence made me realize no one can help you other than yourself otherwise anyone can crush you by using your emotions, by playing you, by making you helpless so that you can't live without that person, realize me show have to be more successful, more strong so that no one can take advantage of you without your knowledge.

Apart of my hard work He is the reason of my success and he is also the reason that I lost all my emotions, my peace, my smile, my trust, and for that I can never forgive him,

ever.

And when now that lily is gone this lily do not compromise with my profession so I am packing for Los Angeles and I also have to meet dad. I haven't seen him for 4 years. After meeting him we will come back here otherwise that handsome crazy Kingston will come there without wasting any second. So are you helping me or you are preparing breakfast, I am so much hungry"

Valerie laughed at her "you go because I am making breakfast babe." She doesn't know what will happen there but one thing she knew, she just wants her friend to be happy and she will support the person whoever makes lily happy.

Los Angeles//

Lily pov//

After our conversation the next day we leave for Los Angeles. When we reached our hotel after long 11 hours frankly speaking we were deadly exhausted. Because I cannot sleep anywhere except for my bed. So whenever I travel I suffer from insomnia or cannot sleep for a long time. So, I immediately fell asleep after stripping my clothes off. I was so engrossed with my sleep that I didn't hear any sound of anything.

After don't know how long an hour sleeping I saw Valerie was sipping her coffee and looking at me while raising her one eyebrow. "Good morning oops good noon sleepyhead." "huh? Shit, its been noon? for how long have I slept?"

"Uhm let me see...its been 10hours."

"Whoa,10 hours? Whatever I am feeling so good. It's been a while I have slept like this" "oh please while you were sleeping like a slumber your crazy Kingston called the hell out of me, just call him once and tell him to calm down otherwise I will kill him without wasting any time. I am keeping myself calm because I don't want to become a murderer" I just rolled my eyes, I was engrossed by so many dramatic people.

I called my Romeo and guess what he immediately picked my call as if he was waiting for it "babeeeeee why didn't you tell me that you are not here? Here I was waiting to return into your arms but there you are sleeping peacefully while I couldn't close my eyes off."

I just sighed, here we go. His nagging time has come and he will do it for some time. I don't understand how did he become a powerful business with his childhood attitude or it was me with whom he behaves like this, uuugh whatever suits him.

"Are you done Kingston?" "Yes, I am done now tell me when will you come baby. I am missing you badly.." "Jake, I will come two days later. Tomorrow is our conference and the next day I will meet my father so after that, I will come "

"What? (shout) two more days! babe, can't you come soon? Wait, can I come? Tell me the hotel you are staying at, I will be there in my private jet and..."

"Jacob Kingston do you not want me to come back to Spain anymore?"

"Huh? Why are saying that?" I am sure he would be pouting "if you don't want then just stay wherever you are right now, after finishing my work I will be there and stop behaving like a desperate boyfriend which you are not and it does not suit you at all. You should not forget who you are jake."

I heard him sigh, I knew I was behaving like a bitch but I don't want him to be so attached with me and nor I want to be so attached to him.

"Baby, for you I can become anything but please don't be mad. I am sorry I upset you, but I feel uneasy, incomplete without scooping you into my arms. Every day I at least get to hug you or make love to you, so that I can sleep peacefully. So show mercy on me and come back quickly."

His words are enough to show how much he cared about me. In a business world, everyone is scared to mess with him, no one can dare to talk to him like but when it comes to me he doesn't care about his status.

Sometimes I wish what if he would have come into my life before him, what kind of life I would have lived? But I shrugged off these thoughts because it cannot happen.

"Jake like I said I will come after two days so be a good boy and don't be so impatient. You have your empire to handle so stop behaving like a kid and don't forget to eat and sleep properly, otherwise, you know what will happen Kingston"

He chuckled with his deep husky voice "ai ai captain...just take care of yourself sweetheart and lily..." I knew what he wanted to say but decided not to say those words "take care love and come soon" "I will Jake, I will " with that I hung up.

Why things are complicated in my life, why can't I just let go. I don't know...just don't know...

Next day//

For the whole day, we were busy in that conference, my meeting with my fans, how they were so happy to meet me, how they were telling me that I give them strength, my dance make them dance like that, people from a different place, the country came here only to meet their favorite YouTuber and I was one of them.

They were like taking selfies with me, my meeting with new you tubers, giving an inspirational speech for my fans, we were running, meeting with some important people made us so happy but also exhausted. So we didn't waste any time after went to our hotel room we decided to fell ourselves into our bed so that we can go to our dreamland but before that, I decided to call dad.

"Hello?"

"Hey dad, it's me, Lily."

"Oh my god, how are you my child, where are you? It's been months since we have talked to each other. How can you forget to call your dad? don't you miss me my beer?" I feel warm whenever he calls me to bear, these feelings cannot fade away even if I try to "dad, I miss you too. I am sorry that I didn't call you but Well let me compensate you, what say dad?"

"What do you mean?" "I am in Los Angeles" there was silence from dad for some moments, he didn't make any sound for some time "dad, are you there?" "Huh? Are you telling truth. You are not messing with me, right?" "No dad I am not and guess what I am coming there to meet you."

"Oh my god, you are coming! It's been years since I have seen you in person. I can't wait to embrace my little bear, please come soon my bear" I knew he was in tears which made me sad too "see you, tomorrow dad."

Next morning//

It was noon and I was ready to visit my dad, I was finally going to my old home where so many memories are hidden. I don't know about other people with whom I once have created my memories.

After that incident it was the only dad with whom I kept my contact, I had no idea about any of the people I used to knew and not that I care. I was in my casual cloth and I was going alone there

One hour later I was finally at my old home. I saw dad was already there to receive me at the front door.

I ran into him and he engulfs me into his arms "my daughter, my bear I missed you" I hugged him like this after so many years and we both were not ready to leave our arms from each other. After some time we step back and he caresses my hair "what took you so long to meet your dad? Were you too busy to meet me?" "Did you know the reason, I am extremely busy with everything. I am also here for work and today I have to go back to Spain."

"What, for how many days you are gonna stay here?" I didn't tell him that I have already reached here 2 days ago, I don't want to upset him.

"Dad, I can't leave my academy for so long, that's why I need to go" "ok but you have to spend the rest of the day here with me" "as you say dad, but I have to go back before night, I have a flight to catch" "you have come here just now so we should not talk about leaving for now."

For the rest of the day we spent with each other, recall our old funny memories, we ate together, share our recent lifestyle, how he was coping up in this lonely house, he asked me how my works were going on and all that. We didn't talk about other old things or other people because we didn't want to ruin our moments.

It was already evening and I decided to leave my hotel. Dad didn't want me to leave so early but my flight time had changed into 1 hour before the exact time, I received a message two hours ago.

After hugging him I was about to go then I felt someone hugged my legs. I got scared by the sudden touch, when I look down I saw a cute baby girl, was staring at me by hugging my legs. She was smiling at me with her big blue eyes she reminds me of someone but it was strange to see a baby in this house. I was looking at dad but he was not eyeing contacting me.

I picked that baby up into my hip. She looked not more than 2 years old...

"Hey kiddo, who are you?" She kissed me at my cheek then hugged my neck so tightly which made me stumble a little bit.

"Whoa baby calms down, are you ok"? Then the next word left me shock.

"Mamma you are back?"

I hope you all understand her perspective of her sudden change. Now, she has already met little Lily, she called her momma, but why? For that wait for my next update. I hope you like the chapter, follow, vote, and share if you like. Thanks, bye😍😘😘😘